(:

Three days til I go home for christmas... Well.. two and a half now really :P

Just watched love actually... man I love that film (:



Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all

Now I was once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name


Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keep callin'
And I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
The sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two




Stayed out this weekend.. Went back to the first place I stayed in while I was on my exchange with school. So that was nice.

=D

So whats new?

1- I moved to Germany
2- I have a new job- thats right people, no longer just a trial but a job ;)
3- I have a boyfriend? Umm.. weird I know.. but we will take this one step at a time and try not to fuck it up ;)



ummm... anything ive missed? dont thiink so..

OH YEAH!

4- Car broke down xD



uummm... yeah i think thats it (:


So.. Germany.. its nice (: Ive been allowed loose on the roads with three different cars soo far.. which is great fun! Even though i have bumped the curb in the bigger one.. but thats sort of understandable.. considering this car is HUGE! Like.. I dont know who I told this too.. but that image I had of the mum with sun glasses and an expensive coat.. carting her many children around in a HUGE 4 by 4 but shinier type thing?? - well that was me this afternoon (minus the sunglasses) ;)

My room = LUSH! Like really nice.. en suite.. kithenette.. (which I dont use- except for the fridge)

ummm... Language lessons.. really easy but good.. like going back to GCSEs again.. but sorting out my grammer xD I have also met a couple of other au pair girls. One of which is incredibly friendly - in fact we have organised going out for food again after our lesson tomorrow- so looking forward to that (: She also has friends in Munich.. so that will be fun (:

Also have seen ivi.. which was nice.. and she has invited me to a party in december.. 17th maybe? hmmm.. i will have to double check that one..

Kids.. nice yet crazy :L Very.. strong minded :P hahahaha I have fun colouring.. swimming.. playing horses.. the usual :P




But generally, I like it (: Flight over here alone was fine.. and finding a taxi.. giving him the address.. and showing up at my new home :L
- First impression.. WOW!! Have we got the right house?! This place is HUGE! I mean.. even in my second week.. I was still discovering new rooms! The "Wellness Room"... hahaha that is a nice one (: I like that one ;) It even has a sauna.. not that I like saunas.. they just sound impressive :L




but I will be home around christmas for a week.. or two.. if everyone is lucky ;D
Looking forward to seeing everyone again.. Gunna get TROLLIED! =D


But I should really sleep.. Its an hour later here.. (11.38) and I have to be up earlayy! When I get internet back on my own laptop i will upload photos onto facebook! I have some damn cool ones of me jumping on the trampoline.. well.. mafalda kind of has her finger over the lense.. and its blurred.. but still :P



anywayy.. Tüsch!









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I had pretty much forgotten about this blog thingy xD woops..

Well.. what has happened since I've last posted? I've moved house..=S I've got a two month job trail in Germany :P And give it less then a month, and I'm the HELL outta this country :P Bi- lingualnessness here I come =D

Its really nice seeing everyone having a good time at uni, but I really don't think it was the place for me. I belong in Germany (:

And I will never be leaving those I love behind, they know that, because I will always be just a letter/call away (:

Jake says he will get international calls and call me everyday, I can tell he is annoyed as I am leaving the day before his birthday, but he will be okay (:

Gloria and Mafalda- The two german girls I will be looking after, just outside Munich, five minutes walk from the language college :P Oh yes < 3




I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway






p.s. I miss you old gas oven!



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"You ditched me from the moment Toby ditched you"

And you don't think I could have used a good friend then? You don't think I wasn't suffering then? Good friend..

I see Hayley as my world for a reason. She was there for me, she picked me up when I felt like lying in bed and crying all day. She was the one that did that results day too. And she always will.



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mmm.. I just woke up really happy for some reason..

I just have this image in my head.. a couple of years from now.. I will be on a plane home with a gorgeous german bloke.. coming home to introduce him to mother.. And we will just be chatting away in german =D
Its gunna happen... it soooo has to happen!


Mannn... I crave germany soo bad! I miss the language! And my job.. well.. I cant get stuck in it.. Im doing soo many hours.. that I dont even know what to do with myself anymore.. I mean.. I did 12 hours yesterday alone :L I keep telling myself that its only for another month then I can get the hell outta there.. but why do I still neeeed to do soo many hours?! I dont even need the money right now.. we are moving out either way.. so its not like i could make a difference there.. I have enough for flights to germany and for food until I get my job.. ?! So why am I killing myself with all these hours?!


I mean I do and I dont want to go.. I know I need to.. But I really dont want to leave hayley.. any of the girls.. or jake.. he has been such a rock in my life.. =/




hhmmmm.. nich should be back off holiday today though.. so i will leave it until midday.. and then.. let the stalking commence =D




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When the weekend comes I know I'll feel alive
You will be the last thing on my mind
No regrets, do you know what that means

Well it's hot, it's loud, it's wild
We bounce to this track
And I don't care what anyone thinks about that
Hands to the sky, and throw your head back

I can love again tonight
We bounce to this track
And I don't care what anyone thinks about that
Hands to the sky, and throw your head back






I can't believe I found the Good in Goodbye. (:











Mood swings are no fun.




I swear, time has flown. I cannot believe that results day is so soon.. Everything is gunna change =/





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heheheheheheheheheeeee.. ahh i am soooo amused!










mmmmm clubbing tomorrow...








I swear.. I must sound soo intellegent in these blogs... xD
I joke..

All I ever write in here is absolute crap.. hahaha this is most likely the only post i have ever written that everyone will understand.. All these crappy lyrics.. im such an emo kid xD



Maybe this is me going over the edge? hahahaha No lyrics todaaayy = Sara has given up thinking/ caring about anything.. :L


And having him out of my life.. is THE way forward =D





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There'll be none of him no more
I cried for you on the kitchen floor

I cheated myself
Like I knew I would
I told you, I was trouble
You know that Im no good


My tears dry on their own < / 3






The bruise on my knee is horrendous.. it just goes to show.. that even when he doesn't mean to.. he will always hurt me.. and all i did was text the nice one saying i need a hug.. and he ran to my house and hugged me. Difference. Still not enoughh..











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Really not sure what to do..


Do I start emailing families yet? Or should I wait til my results come back just in case..? =/

Confused..





I want to get away for a bit.. I wanna be in Germany..Or at uni.. =/






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No moreeee exaaammmmssssssss =D



Finally got to go clubbing last night after work! It had been soo long :')




Ut oh.. wasn't expecting him to kiss me.. hehe ;P












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'Cause it's a hard life with love in the world
And I'm a hard girl, loving me is like chewing on pearls.




5 DAYS LEFT...... not too long now.. the end is in sight....






mmmmm assorted misshapen chocolatess!! hahaha




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And I'll never give myself to another, the way I gave it to you < 3



Shhhh... You promised.







One week left.. then I can mess about with my mental health as much as I like (:














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One more thing to add to my list of things that I hate.

- People that can influence your mood. You can be flying high one moment, then they can say something hurtful.. (Pretty much as they always do) Then you just feeling like sitting at the bottom of a hole.. crying. How pathetic. No. I won't have it anymore. I will not have him influencing me like this. I won't have it.
If you just reread some of the things we say to each other, it is oh so dramatic and manipulating. I just do not need it. Why do we feel the need to hurt each other like this? Why can't we just be happy being ourselves and putting the past in the past?!

I can't stand those dark butterflies for one more day. - Life is just too short.

I do not live to please you.












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Sams Idea.. that I should make a list of everything that I hate.. might take a while. :L

1. PEOPLE!

- Phedophiles! People that go out with underage girls, who happen to be my neighbour, then will most likely expect to see them everytime they come over to see me. How the hell do they expect to have a relationship other than through me?! He can't stay at hers.. she cant stay at his.. hes just out for what he can get. A week ago he was trying to get with Hay ffs!! She was just niave enough to be flatter by him. The rest of us have had exactly the same treatment, only we have all told him where to go.

- People that scratch their faces soo loudly in exams that other people cannot think. SHUT UPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Niave children that will believe anything that they hear.

- People that cannot keep their gob shut. If I say don't tell anyone, I mean it.

- Men. PRICKS. All of them.

- Frumpy niave middleage women. Its not just the 15 year olds that will believe anything.

- Nagging people. Who seem oh so eager to replace you with someone better aka your friends.


2. EXAMS

- Business studies. I hate you! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!

- Revision. Get fucked.

- Results. Everyone that tried half as hard as you, doing twice as well. Fuck you.


3. LIFE

- Random depressive moments that won't FUCK THE HELL OFF!

- People dying. Opa < / 3

- Pets dying.

- Shoes that always get holes in!!!!! GRRRRR

- Working when everyone else is out doing something fun. This is a pretty childish one.. but it gets to you.

- General responsibilities - paying for your own car, having a job, moving out, not leeding anyone on? Fuck that last one. I dont care. What doesnt kill you just makes you stronger right? That or it makes you sit outside clubs and cry.

- Student finance.

- People that always complain about how crap their life is!! Man the HELL UP!!!!!!

I guess I should shut up soon... Im getting abit bored of ranting.. but I guess it keeps me from writing it on facebook where it actually does offend people.

Dan is in a relationship with Emma
Sara; Doesn't that make you a phedophile?

Woops. (:




Maybe I should be a bit optimistic too?


A list of things I love? Nah.. I just need the one thing here. Friends.


Hayley
Chloe
Hannah
Ela
Sam




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Boy don't even try to touch this
Boy this beat is crazy
This is how they made me
Houston, Texas baby
This goes out to all my girls that's in the club rocking the latest
Who will buy it for themselves and get more money later
I think I need a barber
None of these n***** can fade me
I'm so good with this
I remind you I'm so hood with this
Boy I'm just playing
Come here baby
Hope you still like me
If you pay me

My persuasion can build a nation
Endless power, the love we can devour
You'll do anything for me



Soo obsessed with this song < 3









Cannot wait to be free again.. After the exams.. I plan to go wild!! I plan on becoming even more of an alcoholic than I currently am.. I plan to go clubbing as much as possible.. I plan on kissing who ever I want whenever I want when I am out.. I plan on completeing Hays list ;) But right now.. I will just sit home and revise.. (:





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My persuasion can build a nation
Endless power, the love we can devour
You'll do anything for me













Finally took Dan to see Brum.. bit of a let down if I'm honest.




Felt a bit bad for Jake last night.. I thought he'd gone out clubbing.. his cousin showed up at mine tapping on my window at half 2 in the morning.. He forgot his ID.. so sat outside and cried? Oh dear.











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His old battered sunhat is still by his chair in the sunroom. The chair is empty.





I sat at nan's to do some revision today.. had a chat with her for a bit.. =/


She still won't show it..








Blurghh.. cold.. Dislike muchly.


Exams... also dislike muchly..


















Well Jake finally has a job.. Wow! And there was me starting to think he had some sort of disablility.














Dan and Paul are coming over soon.. and Steve.. I need to hold it together.. Hay is too busy revising.. =/ But hopefully will come over later..




And I was doing so well..






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I dont want to say goodbye
I can see the fear inside your eyes
It's so hard to walk away

I'm already missing you
But I'm not even gone
In time we'll be together again
And it won't be long

Just hold it in
Dont let it go
You'll always live
Inside my soul





Does someone want to go sit all my exams for me? Work for me? Cause right now all I want to do is sleep.




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All those arrows you threw
You threw them away

You kept falling in love
Then one day

When you fell,you fell
Towards me

When you crashed in the
clouds, you found me

Oh, please don't go
I want you so
I can't let go
For i lose control

Get these left handed
lovers out of your way

They look hopeful but you,
You should not stay

If,you want me to break
down and give you the keys

I can do that but i can't
let you leave

Oh,please don't go
I want you so
I can't let go
For i lose control



Pretty song (:











I crave that feeling again.. That blissful numb feeling..










Never gunna happen again.



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Urgh.

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Waking myself up at 4am crying.. and having crying attacks in the bath an hour before work..

Sorry but I need to get a grip.



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Trippin out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah I fell down

I'm freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can't stop it now
Can't stop me now, oh oh

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Got back on my feet, again
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, I won't cry

I,I, I'll get by
I,I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I,I, and I won't cry







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I don’t know why I’m still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes


I am in love with this song. Love the way you lie, albumn version.





Just called emm.. to check she is okay.. she sounds a little drunk xD Bless her.. I remember the days of being 15.. good times xD God I miss them!















Well it's 00.03 .... and Im off out now







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Kayne West. What are you?! A Lampie?!

All of the lights
Cop lights, flash lights, spot lights
Strobe lights, street lights
(all of the lights, all of the lights)


Hmmm.. I am trying a new thing to try and take that "blue glow" out of my legs. I am trying a gradual fake tan moisturisor.. so no laughing when they turn orange! hehe
It seems to be working.. i think.. its difficult to tell to be honest. But I have finally learnt.. that I will Never tan naturally, so I am taking the matter into my own hands. ;)




Ahh I really want my magical bunny to come colour with me. hehee




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Keep your hands to yourself,
These lips belong to someone else.


I think I told Jake something that he didn't like last night.. tehe.. Long story short "I dont want to have sex with you." He sulked like a child. See.. Even the nice guys revolve around it. ;)


Well I sussed you good.
oh You knew I would.








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Urghhh.. Kinda hungry :L

I have really bad cravings for a ceasar salad.. bad times.. hahaa



Going to Chris' tonight with Hayy (: So that should be nice.. running round his mansion and jumping on all the beds.. haha.. shame i cant drink though as I have to drive home ):

But got another friendd coming round too so is all gooood (:


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Two weeks away it feels like the whole world should've changed
But I'm home now
And things still look the same
I think I'll leave it till tomorrow to unpack
Try to forget for one more night
That I'm back in my flat on the road
Where the cars never stop going through the night
To a life where I can watch sunset
I don't have time
I don't have time


I've still got sand in my shoes
And I can't shake the thought of you
I should get on, forget you
But why would I want to
I know we said goodbye
Anything else would've been confused but I wanna see you again

Tomorrow's back to work and down to sanity
should run a bath and then clear up the mess I made before I left here
Try to remind myself that I was happy here
Before I knew that I could get on the plane and fly away
From the road where the cars never stop going through the night
To a life where I can watch sunset
And take my time
Take all our time

I wanna see you again
Two weeks away, all it takes to change and turn me around, I've fallen
I walked away and never said that I wanted to see again


I wanna see you again
I wanna see you again












I wanna leave here.. I wanna be in Germany..




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humpfffffff.....


I need to go running.. =/



This is soo unhealthy for me..

He won't text back.. im going slightly insane.. but i'll be fiinee..


I will get over it (:













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Word on the street, you got somethin' to show me, ee
Magical, colorful, Mr. Mystery, ee
I'm intrigued, for a peek, Heard it's fascinating

Come on, baby, let me see
What you're hidin' underneath

Words up your sleeve
Such a tease
Wanna see the show, oh
In 3D, a movie
Heard it's beautiful, oh
Be the judge
And my girls gonna take a bow, oh

I want the jaw droppin', eye poppin', head turnin', body shockin'
(Uh, uh, oh, Uh, uh, uh, oh)
I want my heart throbbin', ground shakin', show stoppin', amazing
(Uh, uh, oh, Uh, uh, uh, oh)



Wow. heheee



Ahh last night was amazingg.. well.. as amazing as a night in stow could get =/ :L
I am now officially part of Rodneys Rodda Squad.. Rodney being Dan Z.. hahhaa
Paul accidently called him Rodney and it kinda stuck last night.. hahaa
So yeahh.. me and Hay got a taxi back to bourton and went our ways.. and the blokes went back into town to go clubbing.. :L ahhh voicemail from Dan at 3am drunkenly discussing the Rodda Squad with himself xD And a text at 6.30am saying that they were only just going home.. hahahaa bless theemmmmm (:
Ahh Pete seems soo much happier out of work (:


No emotions allowed! Night night xx




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I go back to december all the time (8)

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Ich fühle doof.. Ich will dich.. Jederzeit.. Jeder Platz.. Es nervt mich :(

Aber ich will mein Freiheit mehr als jemals... Ich will der false Junge.. =/





Arggghhh!!







I feel like running.. but i dont wanna go on my own.. =/ Hmmmm...




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Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay




I keep dreaming about him.. =/













Katy Perry was AMAZING! (: Only concert I've been to.. And we didn't get home til half 3 and I had sixth form then work the next day.. but she was soo worth it (:
Getting lost on the underground late at night ftw ;) hahaha

And I drove to Nottingham wednesday =D nottingham trent actually.. but I DID ITT!! heheee motorways and all ;)




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'Cause I just can't fight this feeling



I refuse to call it a relationship, and I refuse to be known as his girlfriend. But I can cope with "seeing each other" for now..

As Sam compared it.. Windows.. Give it a trial.. and if you like then you buy the whole thing and enter that product key ;) hmm.. haha

It does still feel too early to be getting myself into this though =/




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Bitte.. warten..

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sooo confuuseddd =(

He finally got the balls to talk about it.. I felt like I had had a vacuume cleaner thrust at my face.. (I am slightly scared of vacuume cleaners..) So I didn't say anything. Which is unusual for me.

Ich mag dich.. aber ich will mein Freiheit.. =/ Ich kann nicht etwas sehen..
Ich habe Angst, und ich weiss nicht warum..


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I am sooo confused.


I get angry butterflies every time I think of him.. but then that can't be a good thing.. I still think hayley is right.. I will only get bored of him.. as I am me and I am single.. and I hate controlling men. I will keep my freedom. And I won't reduce myself to going back to the mess I was when I was reliant..

However, the look on his face walking across the other side of moomoos was a picture when that other guy had his arms wrapped around me ;) Im not usually one for mind games.. but he started it, so game on mate.



My feet hurt like hell. Still. Out friday night.. split shift yesterday.. and working agaain today. They hate me. hahaa




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You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell



Hmmm.. I do worry that I am becoming addicted to toast.. =/ bad times..




Sam stayed wednesday.. good drunken times ;)
Stayed at Dans last night with Chlo and Paul.. More good drunken times ;)
And going out for Steves 18th tonight.. more good drunken times I should think ;)


ooooffftt.. alcoholicc =p


Wondering when Im gunna fit seeing Jacob into this week.. xD





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Well.. im a little addicted to going jogging now.. I find that i dont have the need to stop anymore.. i just wanna keep going.. I might go for another 1am jog again.. they make me happy.. but i ate when i got back from work today.. so i might get stitches.. =S so there would be no point..

I just wanna ruuun....






fuck i feel like a player?! Mwahh =p





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Mmm.. 1am jogging.. its the way forward! I jogged down to about where silas lives and then back home.. and I didn't stop to walk once. ;) aaandd I didnt see any people ;)

Bloody brilliant.


Work at 11... not sure whats happening tomorrow niightt.. =/ If i dont go out I might find somewhere to stay as I fancy going away for a couple of days.. so yeahhh.. Might go crash at jacobs or at sams or something.. Just wanna get away..





Feel the adrenaline
Moving under my skin
It's an addiction
Such an eruption

Sound is my remedy
Feeding me energy
Music is all I need

Baby I just wanna dance
I don't really care
I just wanna dance
I don't really care.. care.. care

(Feel it in the air... yeah yeah)

She's been a crazy dicta
Disco diva.. and you wonder
Who's that chick? who's that chick?
Too cold for you to keep her
Too hot for you to leave her
Who's that chick? who's that chick?

Back on the dancefloor
Bad enough to take me home
Base kicking so hard
Blazing through my beating heart
French kissing on the floor
Heart is beating hardcore

Err-body's getting a little tipsy
On the crazy juice
This will end up in the news

Baby I just wanna dance
I don't really care
I just wanna dance
I don't really care.. care.. care
(Feel it in the air.. yeah)

She's been a crazy dicta
Disco diva.. and you wonder
Who's that chick? who's that chick?
Too cold for you to keep her
Too hot for you to leave her
Who's that chick? who's that chick?

Ultrasexual
The night has got me love sprung
I won't stop until the sun is up oh yeah
My heart is a dancer beating like a disco drum
Oh oh uh oh

Ultrasexual
The night has got me love sprung
I won't stop until the sun is up oh yeah
My heart is a dancer beating like a disco drum
Beating like a disco drum.. beating like a disco drum..
Beating like a disco drum..

She's been a crazy dicta
Disco diva.. and you wonder
Who's that chick? who's that chick?
Too cold for you to keep her
Too hot for you to leave her
Who's that chick? who's that chick?



Song still sums it up.





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How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode)




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Hmmmm.. This is strange.. I think this must be the first time I've sat down and properly thought in a good few weeks..

I worry I am about to get myself into a situation that will scare the shit out of me and I will freak out and run away and hurt people.. =/

I am thinking about him again.. and I don't like it one bit.. It will be fine in the morning.. but right now.. =S



Valentines day soon.. I look forward to many sexy cards from my girlies.. hehe
I will not be amused if a bloke gets me anything though :@ haha
But I highly doubt any would though so that makes me happy =]



I had a rather angry moment earlier. Kinda harsh on jake as he was round mine at the time.. =/ He hugged me to try and make me happier.. but it only made me worse.. we are too close.. and i dont like it.

So I went out for an angry jog. I dread to think how many people laughed at me this time.. #


Jacob is visiting again saturdayy.. Confused.. =/








There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.

What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.




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Ahh.. Friday night was soo random..

Myself and hannah decided in tutor that we would go out and see a film later on that night.. went out for food.. then saw the next film showing.. which turned out to be pretty good.. even though it was all about cancer and this crazy single woman dieing.. bad times.. Loved the scene with her in her PJs on a bike drinking.. hehe
But yeahh.. we then decided to go clubbing?! So went to tescos.. and bought some heels and an outfit for hannah as she was wearing a granny jumper xD
Twas a strange night out tbf, Moomoos sober?!(Y)


Tuesday nightt.. Wooopp looking forward to itt!! =D Im not sure if we are doing the frumpy jane night that night though.. as I do believe we are going out.. and I dont reeeaally wanna look like a frumpy jane out.. y'know.. And I really have no idea what to wear.. Im sure I can find something in my wardrobe though ;)
hehehee


I hope Stephiee is working todayy =]



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Baby I just wanna dance
I don't really care
I just wanna dance
I don't really care.. care.. care

(Feel it in the air... yeah yeah)

She's been a crazy dicta
Disco diva.. and you wonder
Who's that chick? who's that chick?
Too cold for you to keep her
Too hot for you to leave her
Who's that chick? who's that chick?




mmm.. seeing Jacob after work.. ;)



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It's not about the money, money, money,
We don't need your money, money, money.
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the price tag.
Ain't about the (ha!) cha-ching cha-ching.
Ain't about the (yeah!) ba-bling ba-bling,
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the price tag.


I liike this songg ^^ makes me happyy hehee



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mmmmm singer guy off of all american rejects..?! I want your eyes!

hehe


Well.. Saturday night was lovelyy.. ;) Not all that James bond themed though.. i mean the guys were in suits.. but that was about itt..

Hehee.. My glass was emptyy.. so Jacob came over.. picked it up.. and went and bought me anotherr hehee ^^ I had only spoken to him for like 10 mins before that.. and he wasn't sat with me at the time.. so i thought that was pretty cutee ^^
Crashed with Him, Chris, Steeeevee (Scott?), Char, James and Hannah that night (Hannah as in James' GF) =]
Twas a good nightt.. ahh 3am banterrr xD

He even replyed to me on facebook aaand invited me back over to his ;) ahaa



And am off out again tonight =] Should be a good onee ;)
Me and Hayleyy hitting the town ;) Thiink I managed to get us on the quest list for tonightt.. So heeellloo free entry.. & 3 for the price of 1 drinkss ;)


I loooove being singleeee!!!!!! =D

And laughing at his bald patches in assembly.. tehee #######


Happyy Saraaaaa =D



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You think that you are complicated, deep mystery to all
Well it's taken me a while to see, you're not so special
All energy no meaning, with a lot of words
So paper thin that one real feeling, could knock you down

.. just a boy, not a man, and I'm not coming back


So don't bother
I won't die of deception
I promise you won't ever see me cry
Don't feel sorry


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"I never get jealous when I see my ex with someone else, because my parents always taught me to give my used toys to the less fortunate.."
hehee



Well I have got 3 exams out the way now, and it is just the one business studies exam on mondayy leftt.. So thats good.. and I cannot wait until that exam os out the way.. as then i plan on becoming an alcoholic exercise freak =D Clubbing every weekendd?! I think so ;)

I thinkk I got my finance question right in my buz2 exam ;) I went and compared answers with people out side Morgans office.. barneyy ^^ -Im so proud of youu.. I could just hug youu.. hehe bless ^^
And Morgan.. he couldn't stop smiling at mee =D


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Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better,
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
But I'm stronger,
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
But I'm richer,
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder,
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
Now I'm wiser,
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
But I'm smarter,
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
But I'm chillin'


I don't need him.



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"You haven't seen punishment yet"

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Weeell.. am back from Germanyy.. not much has changed here.. in fact its pretty much the same as it always has been... haha hayley really has turned me against the cotswolds

but yeahh... germany was AMAZING! I swear.. I drank more than i have in a whiilee..
Clubbing in germany was fucking fantastic! Just me and hay dancing the night away in a german club not understanding a word of what anyone said due to language barrior and the music combined :L Got one rather strange guy grab me from behind and attempt to dance with me.. ahh funnyy.. i turned round to see who the hell had grabbed me and was like eeewwwww... twas yuckkyy!! hahaa so i just grabbed hayley and spun her round to protect me from the weirdooo hehehe

ahh.. and new years day.. after getting over our hangovers from the night before.. we cracked open.. ahemm... Several more bottle of champagne.. and played singstar.. for several hours xD
Hayleys dad and me.. singing our hearts out.. hahha :L

And the bus journeys... blurghh.. 20 hours there and 20 backk... soo tiringg!!
Im soo proud of us though! Making all the bus changes and not getting stuck in London or Brussels =D And Brussels is SCARYYY mann!! Its such a horrificc place to change buses!! Sleepy and confused.. at 7am.. with 10 minutes to check in and find our bus.. along a long road of buses.. with heavy suitcases filled with bottles of cheap german alcohol... very confusing and scaryy =S
BUT WE DID ITTT!!!=D

Madcon- Glow < 3
Good songgg



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