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So.. I've been living in Germany for 5 months now. Toll.

My family asked me if i would want to stay longer than one year.. as they like having me around.. I'm not sure. For the sake of my german, I think I might stay.. But I am a little homesick this month. To be fair, its the longest I have been away from home for, ever. 3 months since I last saw my mother, my best friend.. hard times..
But I got soo lucky with my family.. it would be dumb to leave them before my german has gotten fluent.

But something in my life needs to change.. I need to feel some butterflies again.. I need to do something mindless and stupid.. I need to beat another fear.. I need to do something to make me feel!!

I want a tattoo.. I want to beat the needles fear.. like i beat my fear of bikes.. I want to ride a motorbike..

I want something new.. I want him..

I want to feel blissfully happy.. all the time

I want to die my hair more crazy colours..



Ich will Schmetterlings in mein Bauch fuhlen <3



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