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So.. I've been living in Germany for 5 months now. Toll.

My family asked me if i would want to stay longer than one year.. as they like having me around.. I'm not sure. For the sake of my german, I think I might stay.. But I am a little homesick this month. To be fair, its the longest I have been away from home for, ever. 3 months since I last saw my mother, my best friend.. hard times..
But I got soo lucky with my family.. it would be dumb to leave them before my german has gotten fluent.

But something in my life needs to change.. I need to feel some butterflies again.. I need to do something mindless and stupid.. I need to beat another fear.. I need to do something to make me feel!!

I want a tattoo.. I want to beat the needles fear.. like i beat my fear of bikes.. I want to ride a motorbike..

I want something new.. I want him..

I want to feel blissfully happy.. all the time

I want to die my hair more crazy colours..



Ich will Schmetterlings in mein Bauch fuhlen <3



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Docta docta, need you back home baby
Docta Docta, where you at?
Give me somethin'
I need your love
I need your love
I need your lovin'
You got that kind of medicine that keeps me comin'

My body needs a hero
Come and save me
Something tells me you know how to save me
I've been feeling weird (oh)
Oh, I need you to come and rescue me

Oooooooooh!
Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

Oh you make it right
My temperature is super high
If I scream, if I cry
It's only 'cause I feel alive

My body needs a hero
Come and save me
Something tells me you know how to save me

I've been feeling real low
Oh, I need you to come and rescue me

Oooooooooh!
Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touche me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

You've got my life in the palm of your hands
Come and save me now
I know you can, I know you can

Don't let me die young, I just want you to fatha' at my young
I just want you to be my docta, we can get it crackin' chiropractor, I, I, I, I know you can save me
And make me feel alive

Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on



I loooove this songg < 3


Come and savve meeeee (8)













Hmm.. Bad times.. I won't get to see him for another two weeks.. =/


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I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me
Kinda invisible
You don't sense my stay
Not truly hiding, not like a shadow
Just thought I would join you for one day
I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me



Confused.

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