Going back to the 31st March.

Well pretty much everything in that post, I have now ticked off. - Its been one year and one month that I've been in Germany now, and have no current plans to leave (If anything I'm debating starting a 5 year training course once my german is at a sufficiant level) - I beat another fear (I got my tattoo! Yes is hurt! And yes I was scared! But I bloody did it! Because I am fucking amazing! And also went on the back of a motorbike. ) - I got something new! A new boyfriend, and in doing so became happier and got "butterflies". - And lastly I continued to dye my hair various shades of red. Mission accomplised! Next set of aims! - Stay happy - Get C1 level of german allowing me to study in Germany - Get a carreer! - Get own flat (or something similar) Something tells me that these set of goals are gunna be a little harder than the last few I set myself! But I've already proven that I can do things I didn't think I could. Hmmm.. Lets see what next year brings! :) x

Fairytales

Heute schreibe ich auf deutsch- keine ahnung warum. Einfach so :) So dieses Wochenende hab ich mit ihm gesprochen. Ich sagt- ich glaube nicht an Märchen. Seine antworte- Wenn wir immer noch zusammen in 60 Jahren sind, dann werde ich dich davon erinnern. <3 Alles passiert für ein grund- und vielleicht bin ich nach Deutschland gekommen um ihm zu finden? Hmm.. Egal- Oktober fest war ja toll =D Ich hab mein Dirndl angezogen und philipp sein Lederhosen ;) Hoffentlich kriege ich bald mein Kamera wieder und kann Fotos hochladen! Aber Niki sagt er macht das für mich :) Heute war ich die ganz Tag zu haus- in mein Zimmer! Es war wie ein Urlaub! Ich durfte mit den kindern nicht spielen weil ich krank bin- nicht schlimm :P Einfach schlafen, film schaun und in facebook schauen :) Aber der arm Philipp ist jetzt wegen mir auch krank! Man flu :P hahaa nah eigendliche ist es nicht toll.. Ich hab heute so viel medicine genommen dass ich wie ein Fee fuhlte! 4 Tage bis mein Tattoo! Hab ein bisschen Angst, aber philipp sagt er kommt mit und halt mein hand =D Und nur noch 2 und halb wochen bis ich heim fliege mit ihm =D =D Mummmyyyy =D <3 The biggest problem in our relationship- DINGLISCH! hahaha aber eigendliche ist das auch nicht so schlimm :) Was denkt ihr? Gehts mein deutsch endlich ein bisschen besser? ;) x

Dirndl =D

So I stopped biting my nails?! Just painted them bright red so they look pretty for tomorrow- Oktober fest! My family bought me a dirndl! One of these traditional german dresses. Mine is soooo cute! I'm going to wear it into munich tomorrow to oktober fest =D With my man in his lederhosen :P Tickets are booked to come back to england for hay's birthday.. me and my man :) Overly excited about this! Seeing all my people, and introducing him to them too =D Holding hands, showing him round my village, chatting german ^_^ Other than for a few days/ weeks at a time- no current plan to move back to england :) x

=D

So we ended up staying in Mallorca for three weeks instead of two as i originally thought.. Saw the lion king live in hamburg.. Got a bit of a tan in mallorca.. Philipp says it looks like by bikini marks will glow in the dark xD And yes he waited for me for four weeks, after only knowing me two weeks- ganz brav :P Tomorrow he is coming to "fairytale land" with me and the kids (the parents are away and I have to occupy them the whole weekend) and the family knows about this and is fine with it =D Happy Sara :) Seems a little too good to be true.. but I never learn :) What ever happens it will be worth it :) =D <3 x

Tired but happy.

Okay.. so those two weeks to myself- I was practically NEVER alone! ahaha- I think the most I have been alone all week is right now! Maybe 4 hours to myself? And a night in my own bed! #Exhasted! But yeaaaa.. I met a guy last week - Swiss boyfriend <3 Crazy two weeks! And now, tomorrow I am off to Hamburg, then mallorca- and when I get back I will introduce him to the guest family ^.^ I have just done most of my packing, am going to talk to mummy, then SLEEP! He is even taking me to the train station tomorrow :D Tiredd... x

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Sie sagt, sie würde gern ans Meer
Mal wieder weg von hier
ist egal wohin, einfach weit weit weg und der Stress bleibt hier
und am besten gleich
sie sagt man ich hätt' gern Zeit
wär nicht gern reich
ich will nur so viel, dass es stressfrei reicht
ey verdammt man ich wär gern frei
sie will nach London Paris einfach raus in die Welt
und smilen yeah!
und jeder Club spielt ihr Lieblingslied
sie will nie wieder heim yeah!
Und sie glaubt fest dran aber schaut mich an
sagt was ist mit dir sag hast du n‘ Wunsch
ich sag ne eigentlich ist alles cool denn

Baby glaub mir das Beste bist du,
ey vergiss mal den Rest und hör zu
ich will nie wieder weg denn es ist cool
Ja ich weiß es gibt viel was mir gefällt
Und Baby glaub mir das Beste bist du,
ey vergiss mal den Rest und hör zu
ich will nie wieder weg denn es ist cool
Ja ich weiß es gibt viel was mir gefällt

Such an addictive song!

Korbi sent it to me for some reason?


And now I'm eating a carrot.. mmm :P
Hm.. what has happened since i last wrote in here? When did I even write in here last?! Hmm.. Well I went back to England after half a year away.. was home for two days.. then went to Greece for a week with my haylily- absolute awesomeness!, home for a week- also awesome.. then back to germany.
Now I have until sunday, then the family are away in north germany for two weeks and I'm home alone- just me and Richard (: Then I meet them in Hamburg on the 8th and we fly off to Mallorca for another two weeks! Life is good (:
Oh and I'm getting a tattoo this month (: This is if I don't chicken out- painful shit! And not to forget my terrific fear of needles!

Umm.. what else? Random monday night out after the last language lesson- that was very random! And fun! Which is strange, as stuff like that never used to happen to me in germany. :P
All I will say is.. random sailing on the lake in the dark and car trips and vodka with randomers! Then walking home at 4am. Crazyyyyy!
Umm.. then last saturday night- stuck in munich from 3am til 5am and the random bus journey! Also rather amusing..

Also wanting to learn spanish..


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New blog setout - Not sure I like it. Hmmm.. So what is new in my life? Well we are flying to Mallorca this month! Er.. Flying home next month.. and possibly flying to Corfu.. we shall see how that one plays out. I'm getting around the world these days, that's for sure. Germany, England, Switzerland, Ostria, Mallorca and Corfu in one year! Yessss Rather loud thunder and lightening storm outside.. I ran home in that today. I was round at Vard's after going jogging and on the bikes- because hey! I can ride a bike now biatchs! :P Lovin' youuuuu, is killinn' meeeeee Loving that songg :P Although it really has no meaning in my life right now! (: Guess I should sleep x

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It doesn't matter
How many times you cried
Just how many reasons you find to smile


It's ok
It's alright


It doesn't matter
How many times you fall
Just as long as you get up standing tall


It doesn't matter
If the world don't care what you do
Just as long as it's the world to you


Just hold on
Mhm, yeah
Keep on, and on and on


Diggin' in the dirt
Looking for gold
Getting through the hurt for something to hold
In every single word let the story be told



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So.. I've been living in Germany for 5 months now. Toll.

My family asked me if i would want to stay longer than one year.. as they like having me around.. I'm not sure. For the sake of my german, I think I might stay.. But I am a little homesick this month. To be fair, its the longest I have been away from home for, ever. 3 months since I last saw my mother, my best friend.. hard times..
But I got soo lucky with my family.. it would be dumb to leave them before my german has gotten fluent.

But something in my life needs to change.. I need to feel some butterflies again.. I need to do something mindless and stupid.. I need to beat another fear.. I need to do something to make me feel!!

I want a tattoo.. I want to beat the needles fear.. like i beat my fear of bikes.. I want to ride a motorbike..

I want something new.. I want him..

I want to feel blissfully happy.. all the time

I want to die my hair more crazy colours..



Ich will Schmetterlings in mein Bauch fuhlen <3



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Docta docta, need you back home baby
Docta Docta, where you at?
Give me somethin'
I need your love
I need your love
I need your lovin'
You got that kind of medicine that keeps me comin'

My body needs a hero
Come and save me
Something tells me you know how to save me
I've been feeling weird (oh)
Oh, I need you to come and rescue me

Oooooooooh!
Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

Oh you make it right
My temperature is super high
If I scream, if I cry
It's only 'cause I feel alive

My body needs a hero
Come and save me
Something tells me you know how to save me

I've been feeling real low
Oh, I need you to come and rescue me

Oooooooooh!
Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touche me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on

You've got my life in the palm of your hands
Come and save me now
I know you can, I know you can

Don't let me die young, I just want you to fatha' at my young
I just want you to be my docta, we can get it crackin' chiropractor, I, I, I, I know you can save me
And make me feel alive

Make me come alive
Come on turn me on
Touch me, save my life
Come on and turn me on
I'm too young to die
Come on and turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on
Turn me on



I loooove this songg < 3


Come and savve meeeee (8)













Hmm.. Bad times.. I won't get to see him for another two weeks.. =/


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I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me
Kinda invisible
You don't sense my stay
Not truly hiding, not like a shadow
Just thought I would join you for one day
I'm sitting down here,
But hey you can't see me



Confused.

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Wir ertrinken zu zweit
In unseren Worten.
Wir ertrinken zu zweit
In Einsamkeit.

Zu lang, zu weit, zu viel passiert...



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Okay.. back from Switzerland.. and THANK FUCK FOR THAT! hahahaha
I am referring to the 5 hour return journey.. urgh that was not a good experience! xD

But I am now back to good old Germany! And couldn't be happier! I am having horrendous mood swings this week.. (Y) Right now I am happy.. dancing round my room (with the door locked) and headphones in.. to.. well.. all sorts of weird music.. Favourite being my New Woman CD that me and mum bought together yeeaars ago! Always reminds me of drunkenly crashing on my matress in my old house while we were half way through moving out.. (: And dancing round my room in the mornings while putting on make up.. man I love this CD :')

Jake sent me a really cute picture and some heart thing he made.. very cute! It even went up on my wall ;D


But yes.. Switzerland was very beautiful and all.. but it's not for me. Germany! (:
Very amusing experience with the Hotel Masseuse.. The night ended with both of us pretty drunk.. ranting on about how marriages today dont last?! Then myself nicely declining to a free massage xD Crazyy times..
And since I have been back my nose has stopped bleeding =D GOOD TIMES!



I have no relevant lyrics.. so yeah....



Postman Pat.. Postman Pat.. Postman Pat and his Black and white cat.... (8)



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I'm soo frustrated. And for once I don't mean that in a sexual way. Well.. I guess that too.. xD


But if I can manage to move to a different country ALONE and sort my life out.. find friends.. in the middle of fucking nowhere.. I'm sure you can find a couple of friends at uni.. yes.. Sam this is directed at you. =.=
Just ask one of your flat mates to go out for a drink?! Not that hard..
And it kinda serves you right for going home every weekend.. Just sayin'

You'd do better without that arsehole. Don't look at life like.. "I guess I can always go running back to him if something goes wrong.." .. so what will you do when you break up? Cause lets face facts.. nothing lasts forever.. That kind of attitude is what got you in this shitty situation in the first place.
I haven't seen my boyfriend in two months.. and I won't get to see him again until he books a flight over to see me an another couple of months. I deal with it.

You can't run your life around a man.


And get a job?! Yea.. What? What experience do you have?! I suppose Daddy can get you something alright.. =/ But still?! Grrr..


Maaann..






Okay enough ranting..


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'Cause nobody loves me
It's true
Not like you do

Some random song that I heard in my Jazz dance lesson, and I decided I liked it? (:

Hm.. only two more lessons of my language course.. then I have to move up to the next one.. in which I take an exam. However that won't be for a few more months yet, and I hope by then mein Deutsch geht besser :P

I must admit I am getting a little bored of winter, I am looking forward to summer! Here it is soo cold! And the snow comes and goes soo quickly that it is no longer exciting. I mean sure the sledging is pretty fun! But I had never really done that much in England.. as lets face facts.. the weather is always shit in England :P


Another song that I like.. also from my dance lesson..

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kinda sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect you records
And then change your number
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believin it was always something that I'd done

But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know-oh-oh

But you didn't have cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing (oh)
I don't even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger
and that feels so rough

(oh)

No, you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect you records
And then change your number (oh)
Guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (now your just somebody that I used to know)
That I used to know
Somebody that I used to know
Somebody (somebody)
That I used to know

I used to know
That I used to know
I used to know
Somebody


We actually have a really good choreograph for that one.. (: I tried teaching it to Faldi but I couldn't remember all of it.


Uh. My body aches from swimming yesterday. We didn't have anything better to do, so i took the girls swimming for two hours. We went downt the slide for like an hour. Was good fun though, aah I'm such a child.. After a few minutes, it was me saying "Can we go again?!" To the 6 year old. :P


I wish Jakes parcel would hurry up and get to me. He posted Jelly tots and the lion king as well as his normal letter :P


..I really am a child.. =p













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Can't deny that i want you, but i'll lie if have to

cause you don't say you love me

to your friends when they ask you

even though we both know that you do





So weit weg.. und ich muss immer warte.. ich tut weh.. immer das gleich..







What is new in my life..? Not so much.. In fact.. maybe nothing at the moment? haha
Had to take a taxi home tonight as the family needed both cars.. so took advantage of not having to drive and went out for a drink and some food with Manu after our language lesson.. Which was nice (:
The taxi driver seemed to know my guest family.. :P Dont think he likes them.. hahahahah! "The man.. not my favourite" I stuck up for them.. (:

Went to Die Alte Pinocotek yesterday with Angelica.. then out for food.. there was another french girl with us.. but she didn't speak soo much.. But Angelica seems overly happy since she has found her new family, which makes me happy (:

Shame she doesnt come to the language lessons anymore.. but I still get to see her on weekends.. (:




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I finished one of the books mum gave me for christmas.. the ending annoyed me. The main characters laid in bed, with the bad guys not defeated.. slowly killing off the human race.. as you do.. And the couple are just LAID IN BED! Like.. we don't care as long as we have each other.. pfft.

But yes.. I am back in the land of Germany! Went for lunch today with Manuela.. which was nice (: Angelica came back from Belgium today so I will most likely see her next sunday..

I am still missing home rather alot.. Despite Ulrike having found me some cheddar cheese.. fair play it tastes the same.. but it still has that plastic appearance and texture xD Cheese over here just isn't the same..




He holds me in his big arms, drunk and I am seeing stars. This is all I think of.




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I guess one year isn't that long..

.. just feels like a long wait..

..always waiting..





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First day back after my little two week break back home..

Soo. Much. Harder.

Last time I was just soo taken away by everything that happened that I didn't look back.. and maybe because everyone was there.. like back from uni.. when I left this time..

But yeah... =/




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