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I feel reaally weird... like angry but sad at the same time... and calm.. but not..
And everything seems to change so suddenly.
Like my opinions on people.. how i feel.. what i feel.. yes they sound the same.. but they really aren't...
and at the end of the day all i want is him.. even if he drives me up the wall.. even if we argue..
and the next thing i know im happy again.. then back how i was.. and it feels like it did before, not to the same extream.. but it does.. and i don't like it.. this one will work! it will! i love him i really do!
And i know this, because i always did. I wasnt forced into it. It was just always there.

Had an aregument today with her.. Probably shouldnt have done.. she didnt do anything wrong.. not really.. but she needs to know shes pissing me off.. i dont do the whole bitchy fake thing.. i cant just shut up..



ahh well, it will be okay.


maybe its just cause mum isnt about.. ive been alone alot.. too much time to think.. even though im with toby alot..



ii just feel like sitting in my windowsil like i used to do.. watching the world go by... trying not to think about stuff..





ii want to scream but im still calm.. things are sparking inside me but i still smile. =]


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