6 months babyy

Ahhh my weekend has been soo uneventful :L
ii worked yesterdayy..
and todayy??

Walked back from tobys at like 9/10ishh, walked dogs, did some hwk, walked back to tobys with iiggyy as rugby was cancelled =]
sat on tobys bed with GECKO while he played on whatever the hell he was playing...

AHEMMM :P :L



yeahh... walked home again... gave iiggyy and yoggii food NIOMM !! Cricketss.. xD
watched filmss =]


wooo...




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boooreeddd....


Finished work a couple of hours agoo..

gunna go over to tobys soon...


feeling very meh....



want to be rude!
just give me the excuse girl.. i dare you




MEH










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Blurghh... am still wiping mud off my laptop screen from where the dog shakedededdd all over ittt... grrr



Haven't had an amazing day... it involved alot of painful eating :L
But its been okaii.. Not reaaaalllyy in the mood to talk but ii have nothing better to doo xD


So yesss.... MIGHT be taking up Japanese again if all goes well tomorrow.. do AS jap jaapp =]


MY GOD toby was hyper today... :S


hmmmm... ii wonder what the exchange will be like?? ii dont really care what sex my buddy is as long as they aren't horrible or bitchy or somethingg... but yeahh.. by the looks of things toby will be going on holiday to greece or where ever while ii am on the exchange... VERY pissed off about not being able to go... but at least neither of us will be sat at home moping as the other is abroad...
depressing that ii will be away for a whole week... and he will be off somewhere... but heyy hoo...

Exams seem to be creeping up very soon... but its okai! ii can retake them if ii need to... :S and ii get results back for the first unit soon ii think..

ohhh and apparentlyy the last anti vagina cancer jab is next week...

YUCKK!!!


as well as this 'dress up as your favourite book character' thing that nobody EVER does but instead just wears jeans cause they can =]

ii might wear something wackyy.. but ii doubt itt..

whats the point....




aand why do ii NEVER name my blogs... have ii got so boring that ii don't even do that anymore?!



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ii want more evanescence on my ipodd



















'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me.















. . . Tobyyy 6 months on sundayy <333




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Annoyed.

ii got invited to go on holiday with toby karen dan and phil and today ii found out that the german exchange is on the same date as when they had planned to go on holidayy (tis cheaper at that point..) ii might get to go still.. but ii doubt it.. cause ii will feel guilty for making them wait and pay moreee :(


Also annoyed.


Don't get to go to the gym todayy cause ii have to go to the doctors due to crappy tonsils :@
iim sure they will be fiinee.. but still wanna make sure... am bracing myself for bloodtests again.. just in case the worst comes to the worstt... YUCKK

Sara NO LIKE BLOODTESTSS :@


GRRRR




Ahh weeell.. put it this wayy.. if i get ill again ii might loose some weight :L






On a better notee.. ii stayed at Tobys last night after going to the cinema with him dann and karenn =] We watched Percy and the Lightening Theiff... it was alriight ii sposee.. the start was a bit crapp.. ii think it was a little immature.. but stiill =]

Avatar was better (Y)






ii might buy myself a big lollypop for later if ii have to have a bloodtest.... just think about it lots while they thieve my blood... then hopefully wont have a panic attackkkk =] ii'll be well impressed with myself if ii don'tt =]


& No more snow pleaasseeee =]





God i'm in such a crappy mood todayy.. too much caffinee.. too little things to be happy aboutt.. well actually thats not true.. ii do have things to be happy about.. but everything seems to be pissing me off.. stuff just seems to be going all wrong.. like ii wonder if my exchange buddy will be all mean to me and run away and leave me in some random place where ii have no idea where ii amm.. :S ii hope that doesnt happennnnnn





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~valentinessss

heeeheeee


toby showed up on my door after his rugby with roses, chocolates & a card... kissed me... then ran off again ^^

heeheee...


ii love himmm ^^




umm yeahh... we are having a fondu tonight.. me toby mum and rach =]

looking foward to itt =]






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Alonee..

But not bored... not happy... content.

Watching a film ii recorded the other night...stopping it in the breaks to obsess over old songs...

Think about people that ii miss..

hmm..

ii have to remind myself..







ii have taken up walking instead of starving myself.. that eases the gilt.. a little..


its fiinee..

noone needs to know..

noone need pretend they care this way..




ii found out something today whilst driving..

if ii tell myself that iim not going to stall...

and it will be fiine..

ii don't.. and it iss

maybe life works like that??


maybe not..





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Bored.. feel crap.. mehh! wanna go driving to cheltenham on my own... but i'm not allowedd... grr..



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When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again
She's running out
She run run run run...
run... run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...




ii haven't listened to that song in agess... not for a year or so...


hmm





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ii have just got back from my driving lesson in the dark. it was easier than ii thought it would be.. tis good fun =]
Have had a fairly nice day tbh.
Yeah well german was a bit... mehh.. silly training teachyy girl... make us do weird things that dont help us at all and make us feel crap cause we cant figure out her stupid sheet... that has nothing to do with german skills but more to do with being able to figure out what the first letter stands for... twas a load of shit!
But yess... Charley, Simone & Jack came round at lunchh =]
We watched kiddie programmess and munched lotss =]
twas nicee

ICT... mehh still dont get it

Then after school ii went to the hair dressers with Simone.. haven't spent that much time with him lately.. was nice.. bit straange.. but nice =]
ii also got the girl in there to get my hair stuff in so ii dont have to go to town for it every time ii need somee =] Brilliaantt!!


yeahh.. then driving lesson =]
Doing manuversss next lesson... or how ever you spell themm??

Wonder where mother is?? Haven't seen toby since this morning eitherr..

weeiirdd



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New obsession.... Framing Hanley.

niom niomm =]



Went back to work todayy.. first time ii have worked there in over a month.. ii was rather scatty for the first half hour.. but then ii calmed down a bit... think my coffee high went... teeheee


Missing toby... didn't sleep good last night... my mind was doing that fucked up thing again... when ii think there is someone there in my room... like ii am reaching out to them to touch them to proove to myself that they aren't really there.. you touch the air where you think they are and then... nothing. in a way.. its like you know they werent really there... but you were still scared anyway...

this was at 4am. grrr




Weird head...







anywaayyss..








ii'm going through another one of those phases when ii have decided ii hate myselff... so yeahh... hence whyy ii am hiding in all the hoodiess... ii am fed up of people telling me ii should loose weight or making me feel crap about myself by saying ii look pregnant.. y'know what?? fuck youuu =]





glad ii dont have to work valentines day.





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There's a place I know
If you're looking for a show.
Where they go hardcore
And there's glitter on the floor.

<33

Keshaa.




ahh todayy has been nicee =]
Woke up next to my beloved... whom ii had to sit with for an hour or so with a bowl while he puked the previous night... you know its love when you can sit with someone for hours while they puke... clean them up and force feed them water xD

Usually it is the other way around haahaa!

But anywayy... went to the bus stop to meet Samm and there was Jake... yeeeyyy!!! Someone to sit by on the buss!! wooopp =]

Shopped for a bitt... bought some BRIGHT PINK undies from ann summers... OMG ii had to get a C cup!!! ii was soooo happyy!! FINALLYYY :D
Hellooooo 32 C WOOOO :D:D:D
Also got my beautiful some stuff for valentines.... =] which im not gunna say... just in case he reads this... :P doubt he will anyhooo...

Bought a dress online... hope its nicee... fingers crosseddd!!!!

Also bought Samm a dress on my card... as she didnt have to money on her.. so now she owes me £30!!



hhmmmmm... work tomorroww... my boss called me up yesterdayy... so am working again now. think ima need to work thoughh.. need to fund the car :D





hhmmm... getting sleepyy... want to hear my babys voice... <333





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Yuckk yuckk... sara got a sore throat =/
ahh weeell...

Tobys party toniightt =] should be funn.. no idea who is going reallyy... but chloe is coming back soon and going with me =] so ii wont feel soo alone with all the guys Woopp =]
then tomorroww ii am off to town with Saamm =] then ii am driving us home :S ii cant wait!! Just imagine how many times im gunna stall at traffic lights and junctions :L
ahh weelll.. it will be funn =]
CANNOT WAIT UNTIL I HAVE MY LISENCE!!
ii reeeaallyy caantt!! ii think ii shall find it greeatt fun to drive past the bus stop on saturdays then drive straight past everyone wanting a lift :P heeheee obs toby will get a lift... but ii worry he will distract me or something... as long as he shuts up for the first few months it will be fiinee =/ ii hopeess :L


alsoo.... CANNOT WAIT TO SEE HANNA MORAN!!!!! :D:D:D

WOOOPP

ii think it made my week tbf... ii reealllyy miss herr... we spent like an hour on the fone and web cam last night =] just mooching through fmylife.com << awesome site xD

ii hopes simon has music at his party... so myself and hanna can groove :L





hmmm... ii feel yuckk..



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ii just discovered that there is a fair amount of toothpaste stuck to the bathroom plant. and ii worry that it will drip onto my hair brushh... but me being me... am not willing to move it as something could go wrong... or.. umm... ii dont knoww!! but im not gunna move it... it looks cool. Maybe it could be a form of modern art??
"And ii call it TOOTHPASTE ON A PLANTT!!"

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Yess... that is how ii am going to get rich... fuck unii :L

ii wonder if ii could become an artist... obs not by drawing cause ii fail at that...
ii took a picture of a girl that ii drew down to show mum todayy... "The thing that bothers me most is that she has no muscle!!"
She cant help it if she is a weed...
She still has pretty eyes...

hmmmm.... sleeepyyy....


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nioommm.... 5 monthss.... <33333333






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