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Two weeks away it feels like the whole world should've changed
But I'm home now
And things still look the same
I think I'll leave it till tomorrow to unpack
Try to forget for one more night
That I'm back in my flat on the road
Where the cars never stop going through the night
To a life where I can watch sunset
I don't have time
I don't have time


I've still got sand in my shoes
And I can't shake the thought of you
I should get on, forget you
But why would I want to
I know we said goodbye
Anything else would've been confused but I wanna see you again

Tomorrow's back to work and down to sanity
should run a bath and then clear up the mess I made before I left here
Try to remind myself that I was happy here
Before I knew that I could get on the plane and fly away
From the road where the cars never stop going through the night
To a life where I can watch sunset
And take my time
Take all our time

I wanna see you again
Two weeks away, all it takes to change and turn me around, I've fallen
I walked away and never said that I wanted to see again


I wanna see you again
I wanna see you again












I wanna leave here.. I wanna be in Germany..




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humpfffffff.....


I need to go running.. =/



This is soo unhealthy for me..

He won't text back.. im going slightly insane.. but i'll be fiinee..


I will get over it (:













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Word on the street, you got somethin' to show me, ee
Magical, colorful, Mr. Mystery, ee
I'm intrigued, for a peek, Heard it's fascinating

Come on, baby, let me see
What you're hidin' underneath

Words up your sleeve
Such a tease
Wanna see the show, oh
In 3D, a movie
Heard it's beautiful, oh
Be the judge
And my girls gonna take a bow, oh

I want the jaw droppin', eye poppin', head turnin', body shockin'
(Uh, uh, oh, Uh, uh, uh, oh)
I want my heart throbbin', ground shakin', show stoppin', amazing
(Uh, uh, oh, Uh, uh, uh, oh)



Wow. heheee



Ahh last night was amazingg.. well.. as amazing as a night in stow could get =/ :L
I am now officially part of Rodneys Rodda Squad.. Rodney being Dan Z.. hahhaa
Paul accidently called him Rodney and it kinda stuck last night.. hahaa
So yeahh.. me and Hay got a taxi back to bourton and went our ways.. and the blokes went back into town to go clubbing.. :L ahhh voicemail from Dan at 3am drunkenly discussing the Rodda Squad with himself xD And a text at 6.30am saying that they were only just going home.. hahahaa bless theemmmmm (:
Ahh Pete seems soo much happier out of work (:


No emotions allowed! Night night xx




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I go back to december all the time (8)

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Ich fühle doof.. Ich will dich.. Jederzeit.. Jeder Platz.. Es nervt mich :(

Aber ich will mein Freiheit mehr als jemals... Ich will der false Junge.. =/





Arggghhh!!







I feel like running.. but i dont wanna go on my own.. =/ Hmmmm...




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Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay




I keep dreaming about him.. =/













Katy Perry was AMAZING! (: Only concert I've been to.. And we didn't get home til half 3 and I had sixth form then work the next day.. but she was soo worth it (:
Getting lost on the underground late at night ftw ;) hahaha

And I drove to Nottingham wednesday =D nottingham trent actually.. but I DID ITT!! heheee motorways and all ;)




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'Cause I just can't fight this feeling



I refuse to call it a relationship, and I refuse to be known as his girlfriend. But I can cope with "seeing each other" for now..

As Sam compared it.. Windows.. Give it a trial.. and if you like then you buy the whole thing and enter that product key ;) hmm.. haha

It does still feel too early to be getting myself into this though =/




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Bitte.. warten..

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sooo confuuseddd =(

He finally got the balls to talk about it.. I felt like I had had a vacuume cleaner thrust at my face.. (I am slightly scared of vacuume cleaners..) So I didn't say anything. Which is unusual for me.

Ich mag dich.. aber ich will mein Freiheit.. =/ Ich kann nicht etwas sehen..
Ich habe Angst, und ich weiss nicht warum..


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I am sooo confused.


I get angry butterflies every time I think of him.. but then that can't be a good thing.. I still think hayley is right.. I will only get bored of him.. as I am me and I am single.. and I hate controlling men. I will keep my freedom. And I won't reduce myself to going back to the mess I was when I was reliant..

However, the look on his face walking across the other side of moomoos was a picture when that other guy had his arms wrapped around me ;) Im not usually one for mind games.. but he started it, so game on mate.



My feet hurt like hell. Still. Out friday night.. split shift yesterday.. and working agaain today. They hate me. hahaa




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