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Sara is no longer single ;)



hehehehehhehehehheeeeeee =D






But yeahhh.... IM HUNGRYYYY!!! And i can smell fooooodd... and it suckss.. cause i cant eat itt.. cause i might diiee.. cause you shouldnt eat uncooked chicken... but it smells soooo gooodd.. but it would be better cooked... so it wont kill mee... and it will taste waayy betterr... so ima waiitt.....



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yyyeeeeeyyyyyy seeing samm tomorrowww ^^
Then hannah ela chloe and haylilyy wednesdayy nightt.... then SHOPPING with chloe hannah and hayyy on thursdayyyyy ^^ WOOOPP =D
Then I should probs see my tobyy againn... heheee xD


Despite my yucky hours this weekend, I am still happy =]
Just think of the moneeyy.... hahaa


GAHHH why does Ian have to be such a stressy gitt?!?!?! and MY NAME IS NOT CLAIRE!!! GAHHHH


I am all excited about seeing everyonee this weekk...!! hehehee


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GAHHHH too much woorrrkkk.... I really dont like split shifts at this new place... Didn't get away from there til 4.30 and i am ment to be back in there at 6.... GAHHH

But ahh weeell... staying at tobys tonightt againn =]
Which kinda makes me happierr.. cause without that thought.. the only thing that would push me to get home tonight would be a Jam sandwichh.... cause they are goood...


Looking forward to seeing Chloe soon againn.. must go shoppingg!!! NEED TO GO SHOPPINGG!!!! GAHHHHH!!!!

Think im a bit stressedd xD



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Ooppss... =S

Feel a little bad for Jakee =/
Was kinda wondering around the kitchen in my undies... toby making himself food.. and jake just walked inn.. =/
Failed his English and Maths GCSE's.. againn...
But yeahh.. don't think he was too happy.. =/



But anywayss.. Samm is staying over tonightt =D Might go see Dann?? Not suree yett =]

Dont have a car atm, as its gone for an MOT pfffttttttt
Hopefully not working til friday night noww, cause i wont be able to get there if they call me up to work anywayss xD

Gahhh... I heard Dan Morgan while i was in the bathh... with peopless.. but they left againn =( Unhappy with thatt!! I wanted to give him a I KNOW WHAT YOU DID!!! kinda look... xD


oooooo Rihannaaaaa =D (sara a little hyper todayyy =D)


Yeeeyyyy emo kid is onlineeeeee woooooooooo =D



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Gaaahhhhhh.... gotta go back to work again at 6 =/

I havent had good sleep in a whilee.. got 4 hours last night as i stayed out after work..

Work todayy.. 11-4 & 6 til finish... then staying out againn =D

Think Ima get drunk with Steph from work, hannah ela and haylillyyy =D
Tis gunna be goooooddd... if im not dying of tirednesss xD

Shall take some niceer cloths, good smellyy and more eyeliner with me and have a couple of drinks and i will be fiiinee =D


And I have sort of decided what Ima do with my lifee..



Ima try and get as good A levels as i can.. while saving moneyy.. so working too... then ima apply to unii... if i dont get in... then i move to germanyy =D

A year or so... just so i am fluent =D Maybe work over there or try and get into uni over there... or college?? Somethingg..
Spend a bit more time with Iwi if i cann =]

Don't know how i would cope with it tbh... but theres only one way to find out.. and either way im gunna be there for a year anywayss.. as the uni course I would wanna do would make me go over there for a year to work or studyy.. So yeahh... why nott xD

And I have started saving for my next load of insurancee.. Ima put £20 away everyweek so I can actually pay for it.. And I can maybe keep the money I have saved up from my last job for germanyy..

So yeahh... basic plan for life so far = Get A levels, Save money, Go to germany again =]



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Yuuupp.. so i fucked up my AS's....

Ict- B
Ict coursework- E

German oral- C
German exam- D

Business unit 1- D
Business unit 2- E



Never got an E before... =(
I spose at least i got an okay mark in Ict... well the exam anywayy...



But yeaahhh... good day other than that yesterdayy =D
Was drunk for most of the dayy xP
Danced lotss... feel a little crap todayy.. and i have work in like an hour and a half... and toby isn't here... and jake is all fucked up atm... he has cuts on his fists where he was punching things.. and i feel like its partly my fault.. but i'm not actually doing anything wrongg.. i try and be there as a friend for himm.. but theres only so much of it i can takee.. =/


Cleaned the house a bit todayy.. fuuunnnn



Was nice to see everyone yesterday thoughh.. glad i did decide to have a partyy.. dont think i'd have coped otherwisee

Got work tomorrow night too.. but i think i'm staying at hannah and elas after and getting drunk againnn (Y) hahaha




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Alsoo.. a few songs I have become obsessed with over the last couple of days...



Why you're lookin' like that
I'm burning like fire
I wanna be higher
Just let me know
Why you're lookin' like that
You're driving me crazy
You're lookin' amazïng




Amazing Inna

Chica Bomb Dan Balan



Songs I discovered from a new CD I got while in town avec my sammyy =]



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Resultsss daayy is tomorrowwwwwwww =S

Mother just dragged me to coop to get ice cream xD hehehehe

There is lots of wine for tomorrowww =D Think ima spend the next 10 minutes putting all the alcohol in the fridgee hahaha hope people bring their own too... cause otherwise we might run out and that wouldnt be good xD wanna be drunk all dayy heheheee =D

I sound like such an alcoholicc.... but heeyyyy why nottt xP
Nothing wrong with being drunk all day on results dayy... did it last year... got very very very drunk last yearrr xD I think me and Sam remember that little bonding session over Jacks sink well xD

I am determined to be happy all day!! Unless I fail all my exams.. then I think id have to right to be sad.. but otherwisee Ima be craazzzyyyyyyy =D


Gunna go round Hayley's first thing for a glass of champagne before getting results, then after getting those back to mine for drinks and dancing me thinkss =D
All dayyy... and eveninggg hehehee (L)


Sat watching simpsons with mum at the moment... pondering that ice cream.... hehehe


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I've got to admit, I agree with Sam's views on this weather... tis rather shit =]
Would like a little bit more hot weather before we go back to having frozen toes.

They are all camping tonightt.. I had to work.. but didn't really feel welcome enough to go join them.. even though i wanted to...

Feel like crying tonightt.. worried about results.. hormonal.. and i hate to admit this.. but i miss toby =/

But I am seeing my Sammy tomooroww, so that will be nice =]
Don't know what we will be doing, but Ima have to drive my nan into hospital to see grandad at like 3 as he is still ill =/
I guess it gives nan a break thoughh.. can't be easy for her...

Wanna meet emo kid...


I should really sleep.. but I'm scared of being sat on my own in my room in the quiet... Think I might just stay downstairs with music on for a whilee =D

Its okayy =]








Thursdayy...


God I am dreading this day... And at the same time I am looking forward to itt... I will get to see everyone again...


And I fecking miss hanna moran =(



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My lollipop brokeee =(

And it's rainingg....

And my feet huurrtt....


But other than that it's okay =]

Stayed out last night, straight from workk (Y) But i got woken up wayyy too early with his annoying alarrmm grrrrr... hahah
Also went into town yesterday before work and did a fair bit of shoppingg.. spent waaayy too muchh xD But at least I have sorted hannah and ela's birthdayy presents and cards and stufff... =]

Meant to be going to a BBQ or something today at Emma's too.. but i dunno if that will still happen as its rainingg.. if not i'm sure I'll find somethingg..

Had a good night with James the other night too =] Tis good to spend time with him, amused by how we battled over the front seat of mums car on the way to tescooss xD


Also quite amused by Jake... Not realising he was sleeping next to someone til the morning... bullshitt hahaha xD He wasn't even druunnkk

Spose it can happen thoughhh.. has to mee xD




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Okay so I worked another shift last night at the white hart. Was fine, I wouldn't say fun exactly, but it was better than I have ever been used to =]

She couldn't find the rotor last night.. so again I am waiting on a phone call telling me when I am next working.. This annoys me greatly as I tend to mooch around the house until she calls as I am worried I will miss the call and she might have needed to work that nightt.. :S

But its not really my fault if im meant to be working tonight and she didnt call..

Shitting myself about results day :S
It has just kinda hit me that it's only one week away... feckingg arrgghh!!
I think mother is letting me have this house party after all.. I hope so.. I am feeling the need to get drunk again.. I will most likely cry lots again.. due to both crap results and a general crap mood.. but nevermiindd =D

Cravings for Ammerrrettoooooooo... reall baaadd onesssss =(




Gahhh... I feel so pointless atm... I'm not fecking doing anythingg.. Yeah worrkkk.. and seeing peopless.. but I mean... pffftttt







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Having cravings to see Sam and Chloee right noww.. but am in such a crap mood.. i don't think anyone would wanna talk to me todayy xD
Got up at 8.. walked.. killed my feet... pfftt

Rest of the dayy.. well i feel like suuch a slob.. waiting around for texts and calls.. must have watching at least 4 films..

Felt so FUCKING pointlesss.


AHRGHGHGHGH






But yeahh.. seems i have a job at the white hart now =] (As they did call back in the endd =D)
So yeahh.. thats good... working tomorrow night =]

Its nice there...




Pondering stirfryy... I don't really feel like eating atm.. but i probs will later.. then will just get annoyed as there is so fecking food in the house.. grrr


And mother won't be in tonightt.. Grandad is ill again.. =/
So she is following the ambulance into town.. so yeahh...



God i just feel like crying todayy.. what the fuck is up with me?!



I really don't cope good with being alone.. I need to man the fuck up and get on with singleness...



Right... stirfryy... coop here i comeee


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Stayed at sams last nightt =]
Got tipsyyyy, sangg on singstarr xD
Good timess

Once again.. sort of single...

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Chloe is staying tonight =]
Mum is out..

Jake keeps texting me...
Showing up at my house...

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All i wanna do atm is get drunk and partyy... Just dance, gunna be okayy




Kinda want it to be warmer again... i miss the heat... never thought i'd ever say that... but i really do!!

I miss germanyy!! If someone offered me a house out there i think i actually would take it!! Its so amazing out there.. everything is just soo nice.. and I would get hyped up by the simplest things.. like understanding things people sayy...
I mean yeah sure its nice here... and id have to take sam with me xD
And everyone else for that matter... chloee... =D

Maybe i will move there one dayy....



hmmmss... some stupid bitch drove into my chloees carr!!! Ima grrrr lots at herrr!! Maybe even throw a couple of grapesss :@




hehehehehe ima ride those camels round those pringless ;)

Ahhh hayleys little party thing was good... ela puked on hayleyy xD
Got made to dance alot... was rather tiredd... but its all good =]
She is very uni obsessed... not saying its bad... but yeahh... they all make it out to be such a big thingg.. and cant imagine not getting in... and well.. im not really all that clever.. and i might not.. and they seem sooo amazed by thatt... and blame it on a variety of thingss.. reasons why i dont work for it.. why im less motivated.. but i do work for it... just cause im not obsessed doesnt mean i dont work for it... Id rather have fun while i still can and work at the same time and find my balance.. than get into uni working my arse off 24/7 and looking back realising i have wasted my last years of school.. they are ment to be fun.. and i still kinda wanna be a kid for a bit longer... cause tbh.. when you have finally finished uni and have settled in with that oh so amazing dream job... how old are you gunna be?? and who is still gunna wanna go do all those stupid fun things we do now..


Sorry about that little rant.. but i really am dreading results day... I really really really dont want another D...


PAHHH!!!





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Bye byee hannaaa...

I have had a lovely weekendd... =]
Love having hanna overrrr =D


And me and toby are getting on good againn, so all seems better <3


Jake bought me a necklace and earings... :S
Don't know what to think of that... made me feel a little awkward actually.. i know the thought was there though.. and hes sweet.. but yeahh.. =/


Went into town yesterday... got milkshakess xD
Did a little shoppingg, was nice =]

And my car has stopped doing that scaryy judderingg thingg.. so thats good =]


Picked mother up from a wedding partyy at Airds... was rather amusingg.. got made to dance and spun round by Jamie and Tara. Bless ^^ Tara is soo lovelyy.
And the candles in paper bags might have been a rather large health hazard, but still very pretty, besides, they were in a field xD How much damage could they have donee.

No more child minding for a whilee.. What to do with all this time?! Seems like my week is slowly filling already... xD

Probs cinema again on wednesdayy?? Oh my god, toy story 3 last week was soo amazingg! There were no kids in the whole cinema.. which made me feel a little better for dressing up to see a kids film xD
But yeahh... i WANT a SPANISH BUZZ!!! xD

And this afternoon?? sounds bad... but i didn't wanna go homee.. I was having such a good laugh with those guyss =]




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