sooo... my room is now tidy :S it is strange to be able to see the floor again... ii got in a reaall weird mood the other day and just started throwing stuff away... then ii got in another not so good mood at lunch today... and threw away a load more stuff... so yess... tis all tidy =]
hmmm.. happy for Sam =]
Bored.. toby is at rugby and ii just want cuddles...
mehhh
ahh weell.. ii'll survive im sure.
non uniform day tomorrow.. like it makes a differencee....
fridayy... yeeyy.... weekend means SLEEP!! ishh... only grrr is that ii have to work on saturday night with mother... boorringg... she doesnt need me there.. last time ii didnt have to do alot anywayy.. they could have coped without me easilyyyy
but still she insists... =/
one thing that shocked me a bit is that ii found out last night that the guy we used to live by when ii was a kid.. the guy that bred my little dogs, died :S he was only like 50ishh, last time ii saw him was in tesco's... when ii was still getting over glandular fever... so that was like a year agoo.. longer?? :S but still... its reaall weird.. cause ii used to go round to his all the time when i was lickleee...
hmmm... ii might just go back to reading tobys book in a minute... laptop is boring me a littlee... 'George's marvellous medicine' :P Fecking brill book!
x
Thursday, 28 January 2010
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
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blurghhh.
that is how i feel at the moment. lunch times are boring me into depression.
ii wanna go driving or riding or walking or something funn... ii dunnoo... but ii need to do something constructive before my mind dies of boredom =]
x
Sparkling grey,
They're my own veins.
Any more than a whisper,
Any sudden movement of my heart.
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away
Just get through this day
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain
Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.
So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can't hear your screams anymore
You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby
Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again.
Evanescence <333
x
that is how i feel at the moment. lunch times are boring me into depression.
ii wanna go driving or riding or walking or something funn... ii dunnoo... but ii need to do something constructive before my mind dies of boredom =]
x
Sparkling grey,
They're my own veins.
Any more than a whisper,
Any sudden movement of my heart.
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away
Just get through this day
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way
You're just so pretty in your pain
Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.
So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can't hear your screams anymore
You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby
Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again.
Evanescence <333
x
Sunday, 24 January 2010
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Okaii.. so it is sunday night... ii do feel like i have had a fairly busy weekend tbh... even though it wasnt reallyy... but still...
Friday.. Aquired car. Drove car round birdland car park in the dark- OBSESSED!!
Chloe stayed =]
Saturday... Chloe left =(
Went driving with mum for an hour or two... =] Picked up sam from tescos =]
ATE ALOT
DRANK ALOT
Watched sex in the city and moulin rouge whilst calling people and ranting to them while they tryed to find excuses to get away from our drunken rambles =]
Ummm...
Sunday...Sam left... sara went riding for an hour or two with mother... sara came home... ate some cheesecake.. went driving for a couple of hours... more food... homework.. yeahh pretty dull ii know.. and now im just sat here waiting for toby to come back so i can snuggle up to him and sleep =]
fecking drained... driving is stressful when you have only just managed to stop stalling when driving off... at least i can do t junctions and cross roads a bit better now...
ahhh... might go hide in a book... but ii cant make my mind up on whether to go for twilight ones.. or chronicals of darkness ones... me is thinking Edward & Bella <33
nighty night
x
Friday.. Aquired car. Drove car round birdland car park in the dark- OBSESSED!!
Chloe stayed =]
Saturday... Chloe left =(
Went driving with mum for an hour or two... =] Picked up sam from tescos =]
ATE ALOT
DRANK ALOT
Watched sex in the city and moulin rouge whilst calling people and ranting to them while they tryed to find excuses to get away from our drunken rambles =]
Ummm...
Sunday...Sam left... sara went riding for an hour or two with mother... sara came home... ate some cheesecake.. went driving for a couple of hours... more food... homework.. yeahh pretty dull ii know.. and now im just sat here waiting for toby to come back so i can snuggle up to him and sleep =]
fecking drained... driving is stressful when you have only just managed to stop stalling when driving off... at least i can do t junctions and cross roads a bit better now...
ahhh... might go hide in a book... but ii cant make my mind up on whether to go for twilight ones.. or chronicals of darkness ones... me is thinking Edward & Bella <33
nighty night
x
Thursday, 21 January 2010
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ii feel bad for sam. ii reaally do. why can she not just ditch him and find a beautiful and amazing guy that treats her the way she should be treated! its just plain not fair!!
grrr
anywooo... getting car tomorrow... hopefully... =] also Chloe is staying which ii am looking forward to... LOTS =] We are soo gunna make cakes and watch the lion king =] then maybe take my new car for a spin on saturday as i am now legally insured on it :D:D:D:D:D heehee =]
Sorryy... you might notice thaat my car is all ii have and will be talking about for months teehee i cannot wait til i have passed my test!! ii will be driving to cheltenham every week after school and stuff!! heehee =] friday afternoons will be spent in starbucks with Chloe instead of my living room xD
ii have to admit... I love my lessons!! It makes my monday worth getting up =] Mind monday isnt that bad tbh... wednesday is more yuckk...
ii do kinda feel like talking todayy...
in fact ii really do fancy some home squeezed orange juice!! Niommm!! only thing is.. its such a mission... it takes like 3 oranges to fill a little glass... but it is sooo yumm!! hmmmm ii wonder if tobyy is staying tonight? He has rugby tonight... but i promised him id make him a baked potato if he stays... so i hope he does... ima weirdo... i love cooking stuff for him =] if you count that as cooking xD
But hes going away for the whole weekend this week =( Im gunna dive on him when he gets back and squeeze him soooo hard he wont be able to breathe =] well maybe not... im incapable of that.. im a right weeklingg :D
hmmmmm orange juice or not???
HMMMMMM I DONT KNOWWWW
"Baby loves to dance in the dark
'Cause when he's lookin' she falls apart
Baby loves to dance in the dark, baby."
Lady Gaga <333
ii miss tobyy.... ii know he will be back in like an hour... but ii still miss him.... ii am actually gunna go crazy this weekend... i havent been away from him for more than 2 days the whole 5 or so months we've been going out =/
hmmmss...
i'll be okieee =]
x
grrr
anywooo... getting car tomorrow... hopefully... =] also Chloe is staying which ii am looking forward to... LOTS =] We are soo gunna make cakes and watch the lion king =] then maybe take my new car for a spin on saturday as i am now legally insured on it :D:D:D:D:D heehee =]
Sorryy... you might notice thaat my car is all ii have and will be talking about for months teehee i cannot wait til i have passed my test!! ii will be driving to cheltenham every week after school and stuff!! heehee =] friday afternoons will be spent in starbucks with Chloe instead of my living room xD
ii have to admit... I love my lessons!! It makes my monday worth getting up =] Mind monday isnt that bad tbh... wednesday is more yuckk...
ii do kinda feel like talking todayy...
in fact ii really do fancy some home squeezed orange juice!! Niommm!! only thing is.. its such a mission... it takes like 3 oranges to fill a little glass... but it is sooo yumm!! hmmmm ii wonder if tobyy is staying tonight? He has rugby tonight... but i promised him id make him a baked potato if he stays... so i hope he does... ima weirdo... i love cooking stuff for him =] if you count that as cooking xD
But hes going away for the whole weekend this week =( Im gunna dive on him when he gets back and squeeze him soooo hard he wont be able to breathe =] well maybe not... im incapable of that.. im a right weeklingg :D
hmmmmm orange juice or not???
HMMMMMM I DONT KNOWWWW
"Baby loves to dance in the dark
'Cause when he's lookin' she falls apart
Baby loves to dance in the dark, baby."
Lady Gaga <333
ii miss tobyy.... ii know he will be back in like an hour... but ii still miss him.... ii am actually gunna go crazy this weekend... i havent been away from him for more than 2 days the whole 5 or so months we've been going out =/
hmmmss...
i'll be okieee =]
x
Monday, 18 January 2010
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Everybody look left
Everybody look right
Everywhere you look
I'm standing spotlight
hehee ii loves chloeeee =]
OMG I HAVE A CAR!!!!!!! It is white and little and ii cant spell the make cause im stupid =]
its great!!!! but it doesnt have powersteering =/ and i havent driven it yet =/
Had another lesson today though... i drove all round my village... 3 times! =]
insurance is fecking expensive though =/
hmmmmm sara sleepyy...
ii just woke up from a little nap that ii just had whilst waiting for mother to finish playing solitaire on my laptop... hmmmm me thinks sara needs sleep tonight... and is not gunna drink for a while... hangovers are no fun :(
x
Everybody look right
Everywhere you look
I'm standing spotlight
hehee ii loves chloeeee =]
OMG I HAVE A CAR!!!!!!! It is white and little and ii cant spell the make cause im stupid =]
its great!!!! but it doesnt have powersteering =/ and i havent driven it yet =/
Had another lesson today though... i drove all round my village... 3 times! =]
insurance is fecking expensive though =/
hmmmmm sara sleepyy...
ii just woke up from a little nap that ii just had whilst waiting for mother to finish playing solitaire on my laptop... hmmmm me thinks sara needs sleep tonight... and is not gunna drink for a while... hangovers are no fun :(
x
Tuesday, 12 January 2010
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SNOW!! GO AWAYYY!!! ii realllyy am bored of this snow!!
ii want it to be completely GONE by my next driving lesson... which is on monday... grrr
but yess... first business studies AS module is out the way =]
it was okaaii... i reckon i got myself a B... ii hope.. an A would be nice... but ii doubt that will happen tbh.
FECKING COLD!!
BRRRR
BRRRRRR!!!!
!!
ii have been wearing my wellies constantly for the past week... even into school and town... but i think i have only fallen over once on the ice.... haahaa
BRRRRR
WHO ARE YOU RANDOM PERSON THAT ADDED ME!?!?!?!
ii want more long socks.... mmmmmmm
:P
x
ii want it to be completely GONE by my next driving lesson... which is on monday... grrr
but yess... first business studies AS module is out the way =]
it was okaaii... i reckon i got myself a B... ii hope.. an A would be nice... but ii doubt that will happen tbh.
FECKING COLD!!
BRRRR
BRRRRRR!!!!
!!
ii have been wearing my wellies constantly for the past week... even into school and town... but i think i have only fallen over once on the ice.... haahaa
BRRRRR
WHO ARE YOU RANDOM PERSON THAT ADDED ME!?!?!?!
ii want more long socks.... mmmmmmm
:P
x
Sunday, 10 January 2010
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
snow...
MEH!! Yeah its fun for a day... but ii bet you anything that by tomorrow i will be annoyed at it... and its ment to snow more tonight... neehhh!!
Mother and toby are out treking... i cba... i have already spent an hour or so out there... and my fingers got cold xD
brrrrr
reeaally hope it has gone by the weekend!!
hmmmmmm Hormonal!!
x
Mother and toby are out treking... i cba... i have already spent an hour or so out there... and my fingers got cold xD
brrrrr
reeaally hope it has gone by the weekend!!
hmmmmmm Hormonal!!
x
Saturday, 2 January 2010
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Yeahh... new yearr... woopdy fecking doo!!
Spent this one alone with toby... everyone was out at partys... even mum... but i was happy enough having an early night with toby =]
ii got a text off mum new years day... "Misha got really poorly at mums and i've just had her put down."
ii hate hearing her cry...
Its still at the top of my inbox.
Work tonight... Revision tomorrow... school monday... back into routine...
Exam on the 12th...
No more work for January....
Toby is officially my longest relationship. =]
ii love him.
hmmm... do miss friends thoughh.. haven't seen them in a while... like my girlies i mean... everyones just been busy all the time.. or i just haven't got round to seeing them because of work shifts being in the way...
ahh weell...
R.I.P. Dogg.
x
Spent this one alone with toby... everyone was out at partys... even mum... but i was happy enough having an early night with toby =]
ii got a text off mum new years day... "Misha got really poorly at mums and i've just had her put down."
ii hate hearing her cry...
Its still at the top of my inbox.
Work tonight... Revision tomorrow... school monday... back into routine...
Exam on the 12th...
No more work for January....
Toby is officially my longest relationship. =]
ii love him.
hmmm... do miss friends thoughh.. haven't seen them in a while... like my girlies i mean... everyones just been busy all the time.. or i just haven't got round to seeing them because of work shifts being in the way...
ahh weell...
R.I.P. Dogg.
x
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