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hmmm.... violent.... ahaa


MY GOD!! Work was caotic today. It was horrible. There were too many people walking in and out and not enough staff to cope with it. It actually got to the stage where ii started to have fun telling people that there were no tables left and watching the dissapointed looks on their faces. But then they stand in the doorway right in the way of where we have to carry plates through, waiting for a table that is just finishing off their meal and will most likely be another half hour.
And this was without outside tables... mind in the summer when we do have the outside tables we have more staff...

But anywayyss... enough ranting...

Christmas is over for another year... yeeyy... haha
ii got pretty tipsy tbf, but at lunch time not in the evening as most people do. I don't think mulled wine gets you drunk...
Got spoilt by my mummy... but i spoilt her too.. so thats okaiii =]
Dog nearlly snuffed it towards the end of christmas day... throwing up... not breathing good... mum in tears... ffs. But its okai now... stupid thing. reeaally dont like it... ii like niko... but not misha... she is always soo in the way and stupid... grrr

Ahh weelll... ii have all of tomorrow free before ii have to endure another week at work...mind i doubt it will be as busy as it was today again... at least i hope it isnt...

hmmmm... ii think ii might just drink my christmas presents tonight with my lovelyy and spend tomorrow being hung over... then maybe when i recover... start on the revision... ima need to if i wanna pass my exam :S



ii lovess my tobyyy =]




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One day, Two nights til christmas. How exciting.

Fecking dogs, they piss me off sooo much.... just... always in the way... always barking... grrr


Yeahh well... what have ii done today?? Walked back from toby's house in the pittyful amounts of snow that we have, then went to work for a few hours. my boss gave me a christmas present. =] Wasn't really expecting one tbf

hmmmmmm staying at tobys again tonight, then we are both at mine for christmas eve. No idea what is on the engender for tomorrow?? Possibly a film day/ just being lazy. But that does get boring... Id rather go into town... but I doubt there will be buses running to be fair.


hmmmmmmm........ this is the first year I have had someone to be with over christmas.. like relationshipwise... no idea how long it's gunna last... but i think that we will be counting this one in years... =]
nioommm

reaaallyy fancy playing grand theft auto... hmmmmm and listening to paramoreeeee
and ii reallyy wants tobyyy.. but no change there...
God i really am carrying on todayy... shut up!!

ii thinks i might be happier when the wait for christmas is over.. cause it seems longer this year than any other year... maybe cause i decided to be more organised about it.. it made it seem a longer wait.. if you get me?? Maybe next year i should do my usual spontanious last minute shopping... should be able to drive by then so i could go into town whenever... well at least i hope to be able to drive by then... but james said it took him like 7 months :S
And ima be learning in the snow and iceee... scaarrryyy :S

Booreedd....


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I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes

But then you came around me
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've opened up
Oh, you've made me trust





And again... I'm ill. Finally it has caught up with me... what ever toby has/had got... As long as it's not what mum has... I don't wanna start coughing up blood thanks. Bit worried about that to be honest...
Well I have about an hour to chill and warm up a bit before I get dragged into town with mum, then have to go to work when I finish... I don't think I am bad enough to call in sick... I just need to shut up and get on with it i spose... whats the worst that can happen...
Hmmmm... well at least I might get to see Toby after work... that's worth everything. =]
And Chloe is staying on friday =] I am looking forward to the chocolate fondu :P

hmmmmmmmmm

I'm surprised he still cares whether or not im ill... i thought he wouldn't give a shit tbh.

mehh



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I should never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh, love
So call me by my name

And save your soul
Save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done

I'll try to decide when
She'll lie in the end
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Tell you to hold off
You choose to hold on
It's the one thing that I've known

Once I put my coat on
I'm coming out in this all wrong
She's standing outside holding me
Saying, 'Oh, please
I'm in love
I'm in love'

Girl save your soul
Go on save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done

'Cause without me
You got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on



Never think- Robert Pattinson
Lovee this songggg <33



I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down


Flightless bird- Iron & Wine
Love this song tooo <333

Generally love twilight soundtrack <333

(Im having an obsessive moment =])



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Ahh last night was good =]
I went out for dinner with the girlies at a restaurant. Swopped a few presents... ate a LOT =] S'all good (ii got a chocolate fondu settt!!!) Then came back and stayed at my Toby's =] He is getting better now... he has been ill for days... some kinda flu thing... and i am really surprised ii haven't caught whatever he had... I have always had a terrible immune system.. maybe its getting better =]
Quite amused by the staff... Long time since I've seen him about...





I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me

...

No pain
Inside
You're like perfection

Lyrics from a CD a friend got me <3333




I can't help it I like to party it's genetic
It's electrifying, wind me up and watch me go. (8)






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ii love you Tobyyyyyyyyy =]








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I am soo surprised that my hormones have not had the better of me so far!! I am well impressed with my self control =] I have barely yelled at anyone!!

But yes... whats been going on lately??
Well I had a house party for my 17th on saturday... that was pretty awesome =]
I am soooooo happy at the moment.... and mainly cause of Toby... Its like we are kinda.... one.. now. I don't worry like I did in past relationships cause I know he won't lie to me or hurt me. =] He is just simply amazing =]
He got me soooo much for my birthdayy =]

2 Necklaces... very pretty ones =]
A Starbucks card with £25 on it :D
A very cheesey mug with "Best Girlfriend" on it xD
A few Anne Summers items :P
And a reaalllyy sweet me to you bear card
"To my Wonderful Wife, Guess How Much I Love You..."
And inside the card... you open it and a teddy pops out at you opening its arms saying "I Love You.... .... This Much"

Ohh and two tubs of Ben and Jerries =] Nearly forgot about them as they were in a different bag... a wine bag... so I originally thought he'd got me wine... but was reeaaalll happy when I realised what it was heehee =] But his mummy did get me a bottle of wine... so I did get one :P Wooppp


Another amazing present was from Hannah.... she got me a toy story zap gun... its sooo childish it's amazingg!! Very loud when you arent expecting it though... Teehee
She also got me some more body paint from anne summers... yyeeeyyy =]

But yess.... 17 now... so watch out anyone on the roads... heehee
I cannot wait until my provisional comes through the post... I will be driving asap =] yyeeeeyyy =]


I've been such an excitable child lately... haahaa.... mmmmmm.... christmas next... yeeyyyy
And this year I am actually fairly prepared for it =] Still a few things I need to get... but yeah... fairly prepared =] And more excited than I was last year... Wonder why... haahaa :D


Chlooee... ii lovess youuu =]





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Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me <33

It is only one day til my birthday. Sam's was yesterday. I got her a little teddie and a badge with "17-100% super cool" on.... cause I'm childishh =] and a nice little clintons card =]
But yeahh... saturdayy is hopefully gunna go weell... try to be optimistic...
Pjs and anne summers theme (Y) Doubt that many people will follow it... but heyy... =]

Looking forward to the girly afternoon with peoples before the partyy... Can have help deciding on which pjs go with my corset =]

Mainly looking forward to being able to drive... mum has already taken me driving off the road once. Got up to 2nd gear... driving round in fairly big circles and figures of 8. =] Well impressed with myself!! Just wait til i get out on the roads!! I'm gunna be a liability.... I have sent off for my provisional so that should come back within a week or two...
Bless... think mum thought i was gunna drive straight into the fence... heehee




You're too important for anyone
You play the role of all you long to be
But I, I know who you really are
You're the one who cries when you're alone

But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape
You can't escape

You think that I can't see right through your eyes
Scared to death to face reality
No one seems to hear your hidden cries
You're left to face yourself alone

But where will you go (where will you go)
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape
The truth
I realize you're afraid (I realize)
But you can't abandon everyone
You can't escape
You don't want to escape

I'm so sick of speaking words that no one understands
Is it clear enough that you can't live your whole life all alone?
I can hear you in a whisper
But you can't even hear me screaming







And I can't love you, anymore than I do

People die, but real love is forever.




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