.

hmmm.... violent.... ahaa


MY GOD!! Work was caotic today. It was horrible. There were too many people walking in and out and not enough staff to cope with it. It actually got to the stage where ii started to have fun telling people that there were no tables left and watching the dissapointed looks on their faces. But then they stand in the doorway right in the way of where we have to carry plates through, waiting for a table that is just finishing off their meal and will most likely be another half hour.
And this was without outside tables... mind in the summer when we do have the outside tables we have more staff...

But anywayyss... enough ranting...

Christmas is over for another year... yeeyy... haha
ii got pretty tipsy tbf, but at lunch time not in the evening as most people do. I don't think mulled wine gets you drunk...
Got spoilt by my mummy... but i spoilt her too.. so thats okaiii =]
Dog nearlly snuffed it towards the end of christmas day... throwing up... not breathing good... mum in tears... ffs. But its okai now... stupid thing. reeaally dont like it... ii like niko... but not misha... she is always soo in the way and stupid... grrr

Ahh weelll... ii have all of tomorrow free before ii have to endure another week at work...mind i doubt it will be as busy as it was today again... at least i hope it isnt...

hmmmm... ii think ii might just drink my christmas presents tonight with my lovelyy and spend tomorrow being hung over... then maybe when i recover... start on the revision... ima need to if i wanna pass my exam :S



ii lovess my tobyyy =]




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One day, Two nights til christmas. How exciting.

Fecking dogs, they piss me off sooo much.... just... always in the way... always barking... grrr


Yeahh well... what have ii done today?? Walked back from toby's house in the pittyful amounts of snow that we have, then went to work for a few hours. my boss gave me a christmas present. =] Wasn't really expecting one tbf

hmmmmmm staying at tobys again tonight, then we are both at mine for christmas eve. No idea what is on the engender for tomorrow?? Possibly a film day/ just being lazy. But that does get boring... Id rather go into town... but I doubt there will be buses running to be fair.


hmmmmmmm........ this is the first year I have had someone to be with over christmas.. like relationshipwise... no idea how long it's gunna last... but i think that we will be counting this one in years... =]
nioommm

reaaallyy fancy playing grand theft auto... hmmmmm and listening to paramoreeeee
and ii reallyy wants tobyyy.. but no change there...
God i really am carrying on todayy... shut up!!

ii thinks i might be happier when the wait for christmas is over.. cause it seems longer this year than any other year... maybe cause i decided to be more organised about it.. it made it seem a longer wait.. if you get me?? Maybe next year i should do my usual spontanious last minute shopping... should be able to drive by then so i could go into town whenever... well at least i hope to be able to drive by then... but james said it took him like 7 months :S
And ima be learning in the snow and iceee... scaarrryyy :S

Booreedd....


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I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes

But then you came around me
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've opened up
Oh, you've made me trust





And again... I'm ill. Finally it has caught up with me... what ever toby has/had got... As long as it's not what mum has... I don't wanna start coughing up blood thanks. Bit worried about that to be honest...
Well I have about an hour to chill and warm up a bit before I get dragged into town with mum, then have to go to work when I finish... I don't think I am bad enough to call in sick... I just need to shut up and get on with it i spose... whats the worst that can happen...
Hmmmm... well at least I might get to see Toby after work... that's worth everything. =]
And Chloe is staying on friday =] I am looking forward to the chocolate fondu :P

hmmmmmmmmm

I'm surprised he still cares whether or not im ill... i thought he wouldn't give a shit tbh.

mehh



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I should never think
What's in your heart
What's in our home
So I won't

You'll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh, love
So call me by my name

And save your soul
Save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done

I'll try to decide when
She'll lie in the end
I ain't got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Tell you to hold off
You choose to hold on
It's the one thing that I've known

Once I put my coat on
I'm coming out in this all wrong
She's standing outside holding me
Saying, 'Oh, please
I'm in love
I'm in love'

Girl save your soul
Go on save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done

'Cause without me
You got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on



Never think- Robert Pattinson
Lovee this songggg <33



I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down


Flightless bird- Iron & Wine
Love this song tooo <333

Generally love twilight soundtrack <333

(Im having an obsessive moment =])



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Ahh last night was good =]
I went out for dinner with the girlies at a restaurant. Swopped a few presents... ate a LOT =] S'all good (ii got a chocolate fondu settt!!!) Then came back and stayed at my Toby's =] He is getting better now... he has been ill for days... some kinda flu thing... and i am really surprised ii haven't caught whatever he had... I have always had a terrible immune system.. maybe its getting better =]
Quite amused by the staff... Long time since I've seen him about...





I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me

...

No pain
Inside
You're like perfection

Lyrics from a CD a friend got me <3333




I can't help it I like to party it's genetic
It's electrifying, wind me up and watch me go. (8)






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ii love you Tobyyyyyyyyy =]








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I am soo surprised that my hormones have not had the better of me so far!! I am well impressed with my self control =] I have barely yelled at anyone!!

But yes... whats been going on lately??
Well I had a house party for my 17th on saturday... that was pretty awesome =]
I am soooooo happy at the moment.... and mainly cause of Toby... Its like we are kinda.... one.. now. I don't worry like I did in past relationships cause I know he won't lie to me or hurt me. =] He is just simply amazing =]
He got me soooo much for my birthdayy =]

2 Necklaces... very pretty ones =]
A Starbucks card with £25 on it :D
A very cheesey mug with "Best Girlfriend" on it xD
A few Anne Summers items :P
And a reaalllyy sweet me to you bear card
"To my Wonderful Wife, Guess How Much I Love You..."
And inside the card... you open it and a teddy pops out at you opening its arms saying "I Love You.... .... This Much"

Ohh and two tubs of Ben and Jerries =] Nearly forgot about them as they were in a different bag... a wine bag... so I originally thought he'd got me wine... but was reeaaalll happy when I realised what it was heehee =] But his mummy did get me a bottle of wine... so I did get one :P Wooppp


Another amazing present was from Hannah.... she got me a toy story zap gun... its sooo childish it's amazingg!! Very loud when you arent expecting it though... Teehee
She also got me some more body paint from anne summers... yyeeeyyy =]

But yess.... 17 now... so watch out anyone on the roads... heehee
I cannot wait until my provisional comes through the post... I will be driving asap =] yyeeeeyyy =]


I've been such an excitable child lately... haahaa.... mmmmmm.... christmas next... yeeyyyy
And this year I am actually fairly prepared for it =] Still a few things I need to get... but yeah... fairly prepared =] And more excited than I was last year... Wonder why... haahaa :D


Chlooee... ii lovess youuu =]





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Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me <33

It is only one day til my birthday. Sam's was yesterday. I got her a little teddie and a badge with "17-100% super cool" on.... cause I'm childishh =] and a nice little clintons card =]
But yeahh... saturdayy is hopefully gunna go weell... try to be optimistic...
Pjs and anne summers theme (Y) Doubt that many people will follow it... but heyy... =]

Looking forward to the girly afternoon with peoples before the partyy... Can have help deciding on which pjs go with my corset =]

Mainly looking forward to being able to drive... mum has already taken me driving off the road once. Got up to 2nd gear... driving round in fairly big circles and figures of 8. =] Well impressed with myself!! Just wait til i get out on the roads!! I'm gunna be a liability.... I have sent off for my provisional so that should come back within a week or two...
Bless... think mum thought i was gunna drive straight into the fence... heehee




You're too important for anyone
You play the role of all you long to be
But I, I know who you really are
You're the one who cries when you're alone

But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape
You can't escape

You think that I can't see right through your eyes
Scared to death to face reality
No one seems to hear your hidden cries
You're left to face yourself alone

But where will you go (where will you go)
With no one left to save you from yourself
You can't escape
The truth
I realize you're afraid (I realize)
But you can't abandon everyone
You can't escape
You don't want to escape

I'm so sick of speaking words that no one understands
Is it clear enough that you can't live your whole life all alone?
I can hear you in a whisper
But you can't even hear me screaming







And I can't love you, anymore than I do

People die, but real love is forever.




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....<333.........

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Hmmmm... confused... i can't do anything but blame myself... what else am i to do...
I know it is my fault...





grrrrrrr





Evanescence quotesss =]




...And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good
Enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?









So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can't hear your screams anymore

You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby

Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out

And you'll never hurt me again.











On a brighter note, Toby gave me an advent calender from thorntons =] its greatttt!! ii loves itt. It has a spot the difference on the back of it too =] which took me about 15 mins to finish last night HA!! im soo useless... i couldnt find the last one *Embarrised facee*










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I was like a lost moon—my planet destroyed in some cataclysmic, disaster-movie scenario of desolation—that continued, nevertheless, to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind, ignoring the laws of gravity.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.201


Ahaaa =] x No significance to me whatsoeverrrr but its still cool =]


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Ahhh my bedroom is sooo cold.

It's strange how mum has decided to start cooking dinner regularly again... she as been cooking like 2 roasts a week lately. It is strange...
But yes... have started my xmas shopping =] And i have the urge to start wrapping presents and such like but knowing me i will forget whos is whos as i wont put a tag on anything... so thats not good.

Im feeling very centimental again tonight... but not in the usual depressive way... which is good I s'pose...

I have had a pretty laid back day today... Walked home from Tobys at about half 9 this morning... did my business homework that is due in tomorrow, then read New Moon for a good few hours... again... Those books are SOO addictive i swear they are... I have been reading it for like 2/3 days and i am already 2/3rds of the way through it. Its crazy. Didn't have work today... just yesterday. So i havent bothered with the whole getting dressed and make up thing today. Still hope that Toby is coming round later though...


One whole year later... and I am still as obsessed with him as i was the second I met him. Think im sad?? Whatever... I dont care. I love him =]


I thinks I might go back to New Moon in a bit... might call a friend first thoughh... hmmmm



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Complete obsession.

It's been over two months now... And it's still going well. WOOP!! RECORDDDD!! xD

=]

Tobyyy has stayed at mine all weekendd... its been greattt =]


Don't reaaallyy feel like talking lots todayy... got work later... yawnss... hope its not toooo quiet as that does get boring... but then again i hope its not tooooo busy as ii don't wanna finishh too latee =] but good tips would be real good too xD but you can't really get money for doing nothing... so yeahh.... xD


ITS MY BIRTHDAY IN TWO MONTHSSSSS Don't forget people =P



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Ahhh boredom.

Was meant to be going out after work with a friend then staying round a different friends house after that. Both cancelled. Pahh. So I have nothing to do... ii am bored.

ii drawed a kittyy... but ii can't find the wire from my camera to put it on here... pahh... nothing is going good todayy.

ii even woke up crying due to shitty dreams... but turns out that he had a similar dream?? It was just a dream though... not all guys are like it... have faith.



he will be back tomorroww..... until then.... just keep breathingg <333






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You don't deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you.

It must be so lonely... to be the only one who's holy <33



Call me over
Tell me how you got so far
Never making a single sound
I’m not used to it but I can learn
Nothing to it
I’ve never been happier

No one is as lucky as us
We’re not at the end but oh we already won
No one is as lucky as us

Now I’ve got a feeling if I sang this loud enough you would sing it back to me

No one is as lucky as us
We’re not at the end but oh we already won
No one is as lucky as us



=]






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I haven't slept at home since wednesday night. And it is now sunday xD Its like i have pretty much moved into tobys house haahaa
Hannah came to visit again last night =] It was awesome to see her again!! We sat in the kitchen together drinking orange juice talking about all sorts of random crap and just laughing at stupid things =] soooo nice to see her againn.
And we are already planning on when she is next coming over =]
Heehee Toby was asleep when I got back last night ^^ bless hiimmmm!! He twitched when i stroked his ear ^^ !! x x x x

Don't wanna go home tonightt... home is soo boring without tobyy :(
aandd mum seems to be getting real stressy with me all the time.. probs cause i make such a mess... and then am never home to clear it upp xD

ohh and if one would like to look up to my window as they walk past... its gone! =] Finally... =]


Reaally fancy a keewii.... niioommmm.....





ii love tobbyyyyy <3

lotss

&

lotsss



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I had a whole day off work and school yesterdayy!! =] Probs the first one i have had since i havve been back to 6th form... pahh. But yess... got to go into town... see everyone... go out for a meal... go see tobyy =] S'all good =]

But now today i have to catch up on like 6 bits of homework for monday.. grrr...


Mroooaaawwrrr....

:P














GINGER NO RETURNSS..... !! Haahaa...




















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All I wanted...

Love Paramore's new albumn... it is the sex.

All I wanted <33
The only exception <33
Ignorance <33
Misguided ghosts <33















Silly anti vagina cancer jabs. My arm is now dieinggggg.... Paahhh and I hasa to work tonighhttt.











<33












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No sleep
No sleep until I am done with finding the answer
Won't stop
Won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer
Sometimes
I feel I going down and so disconnected
Somehow
I know that I am haunted to be wanted

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life

In the shadows

In the shadows

They say
That i must learn to kill before i can feel safe
But I
I'd rather kill myself then turn into their slave
Sometimes
I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow
I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life

Lately I been walking walking in circles, watching waiting for something
Feel me touch me heal me, come take me higher

I've been watching
I've been waiting
In the shadows all my time
I've been searching
I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
I've been watching
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been living for tomorrows

In the shadows

In the shadows
I've been waiting



New obsession ^^

Love it.






But yes... anywayy... Haven't really done alot lately... saw steve last night for the first time in aageess!!
Working today...
Working tomorrow...
Ummm??
Fun??
School on monday...


Paahh


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My laptop is all fixed upp. =]

Have had a pretty wild weekend tbf... One of my friends invited me to an all weekend campout... so I went to that friday night... worked saturday night then went straight back to this campout... then worked the next night too... then got up for school the next dayy!! Woop =] Pretty awesome me thinks.

The campout was completely amazing! It wasnt like any of the ones that go on around here... it had sound systems hocked up to the trees all round the camp... and a huge heated tent and fire... and loads of other smaller tents and caravans and such... oh and the ocational drunk man grabbing bfs bum xD

So yeahh... I don't know why Im online when I should be catching up on well needed sleep!! Silly bean...

Rather confused by those lyrics love...

Only worked 3 nights last week... and only working 3 this week too =]

And yes... I now have my laptop back... so I shall hopefully be online alot more =] Or at least a bit more... but in the week or two that i didnt have it... i found out that it is actually possible to live without msn?! Fancy that!! xD

Better go sleep I spose...




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Oh yeahhh... And I think that the bruise on my shoulder is getting bigger where a certain ginger decided to take a chunk out of me as we were walking back up my road! *Evils** Mind i spose they go quite well with the rest on my legs from climbing over walls at the campout... xD


Really am going now.... =]








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Okay so have been at 6th form now for a week or two... seems to be going alright i spose.... I already wanna drop french but don't seem to be allowed... ?? hmmm silly teachers.

The frees are good =] And i love seeing everyone again!! And just going back home at lunch time and listening to music and watching spongebob and stuffs =]

(Might be making a few typos as am on a different laptop with a smaller keyboard)

I LOVE my new geckos!!!! They are sooo amazing!!!! Yogii & iiggyy =] my beautiful babiesss ^^
Cause Im cool.... xD

Currently laid on my bed with Toby's laptop... writing in this... not really wanting to go to work tonight... rather be sleeping... but must WAKE UP!! xD Feel a bit guilty about the 2 people i bit today.... One of whom bled :S Whoopsiess!! xD


Fancy some icecream now me thinks... niom niioommm... Ben and Jerrys!!! Sara <33 Cookiedoughh.

&


Saraa <333 Tobyyyyy


=]





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RIP laptop.... =(

MY LAP TOP DIED!!!!!! grrr Hence why i have not been online =]



thats all....




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Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.






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... caught up on some sleep ...

I was sooo tired yesterdaayy!! I hadn't really slept in 2 days... but I was asleep last night by like 1? So thats good =] Then didnt wake up til about 8!! 7 whole hours of sleep... actual sleep!! Wooooppp!!!

Got a little freaked out last night though when I got back from work... Tis not good to mess with my head like that when I have been having fucked up dreams... =]

I have come to the conclusion... I cannot sleep without him there anymore.




Weelll I have got my german homework done.. all I have to do now is learn some key terms for ict... and work tonight and tomorrow night... and thats it for my weekend... yeeyy...


Think ima have a bath now... then trek ALL the way to co op for ice creamm =] Niom niom nioommm!!


Lazzyyy dayyy!! :D ... until 6 xD






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Grapes grapes grapes......

Sooo did not just eat a whole pack of grapes.... Nooopppeee.... xD


GECCCKKKOOOOOSSSS!!!!!!

One is called iiggyy, and one is called Yogii =] And they are AMAZING and I LOVE THEMM!!!




Ohh... and I am a happy kid atm... =]
Only down side to things is going back to school... but that isn't sooo badd... means im working less... and so less money :/





hmmmm.... might go get iiggyy out in a min... He thinks its warm down my top xD either that or hes just a pervey gecko Haahaa





















haaapppyyy..... happpyyyyyy.... haaapppieeee =]



... for the first time in a long time ...






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Am sleeeeppyyy.... tiredd... don't wanna go back to work...
I only got 3 hours sleep last night and am not feeling too awake right now. And its cold out there... brrr. And yet these stupid people insist on sitting outside and eating at work. Dumb people. ITS COLD&WETTTT!

God I hate bank holidays...



But yes... Last night was very random... the randomest thing happened to me and hayley... but right now i cba to write about it =] ask if you actually care.


i think i need caffine.





hmmmmm







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Wear your heart on your sleeve, make things hard to believe, I'm not feeling this situation
Run away try to find a safe place you can hide
It's the best place to be when you're feeling like..

Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah!)
Just back off before I snap and you'll see...(see!)
Me...(me!)
All these things I hate revolve around
Me...(me!)
Yeah...(yeah)
Just back off before I SNAP...




I don't think alot of him right now...
And he knows who he is.




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Oh god...

I have to work tonight after last night... uurrgghhh.


Yesterday was pretty amazing tbh. First thing... results...
French B
German A
Japanese B
Sciencess B&B
Maths B
Englighss B&C
Ict A (In both units ^^)
Food tech C


Then back to mine for loud music and champagne (Y)


Ummm... bit dull from then til later on... Cept for the finger painting of course =]
I have put Toby's and mine up above my windowsil =]


Then mum dropped us over to Jacky Poo's house at like 7?? But no one was there so we had to sit out in the garden for half an hour til Jack and peoples got there. That was quite amusing... Me Chloe Hannah & Samm Singing to Lion king songs to keep warm... As it was FREEZINGGG.


All in all though it was a good night =]
Sammy and myself shared a sink at the same time ;) Good way to bond huh?? xD
No idea how much sleep I got.. But it feels like I got some...
People keep telling me things that I don't really want to remember.. Ahaa

Most of the people there were from cheltenham... most of whom I have already randomly met at one point or another... But a few I have never met...


But yess... woke up at an unholy hour... 6 maybe?? *Shudderss**
Then had a nap at 10 ;)


Feeling very guilty about Sams top... so I gave her one of mine... =]


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Nioomm....

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niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom 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niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm 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niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommmNiom niiommm nioooommm Niom NIOMM niom niommm




Niom =]











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Alone...

...for the first time in a while...
It feels all wrongg. :(



I'm tired... mmm sleeepyyy.... but I don't wanna sleep!! Grr...













ilovesmyBunny!! =]



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Slightly freaked out... things seem to be moving round my room... And Im not talking about Toby tidying it xD

But yes... My cupboard is now tidyyyy =] Woop I wouldn't touch it myself... but yeahh... xD



Hmmmm... confuussedd..... I swear it was on my windowsil......







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In the last week and a half I have slept alone twice. Ahaa! That makes me sound like such a whore... but I dont mean it that waaayyyy xD
Like I have had friends over most nights... or stayed out... its been great =]
And I feel happier for them all being there.

Night before last I stayed at Chloe's with hannah, then the plan was for them to come back to mine for another girly night in... but then I found out that Ela was coming down too... and James was ment to be seeing hannah... so he came... And Toby and Jack... And Simon... I think that was it?? But yeahh.. the night just carried on from that... And I have been on a split shift todayy.. so thats been all good fun too... Woop. Haahaa

So back into work tonight... finish... go find Toby... Go home... Sleep... Go into town the next day wth him hannah and jackk... then get back in time for another shift. Yeeyy xD



Niom niommm... I really feels like singing... Shhh!!


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So I went to Ryan's last night... Kinda wish I had stayed sober then gone home at 11.... But hey ho.

Sorry to anyone that had to cope with me and my phycotic ways...




Oh and thanks Simon... You were there yet again for me. Even though I didn't deserve it...




















=(














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Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard.

Oh so obsesed with such a depressive song...
It sucks.




This is the first night I have been alone in days. I hate it.







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So what have I been doing with my life this week?? Hmmm.... not all that much....
Went into town on the tuesday with HannahBannana after leaving Toby to sleep in my room xD
Came home, worked.
Wednesday?? I worked all day then went straight over to Stow with Hayley to meet HannahBannana, Ela and Robyn and go out for food =] Which was realllyyy nice!!
Then got a random call from Toby... who was at my house again... With Bendy and Ben. So they stayed...
Thursdayy... Worked 12-3. Quite amused when Toby and Bendy came in for afternoon tea xD
Stayed there the night... got ALOT of sleep as I theived Tobys bed =]
Numm umm umm... then came home this morning at like 11... made the window cleaner a cup of tea... had a bath... And yet again am online... Sad child Haahaa
And tonight? I am working at 3... But haylilyy is in tonightt.. So tis all good!! =]

All up to date? I think so...

Hmmm...












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You and me both kidd.











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I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

Niom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOM
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Niom niom niiomm niom NIOM
Niom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOM
Niom niom niiomm niom NIOM
Niom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOM
Niom niom niiomm niom NIOM
Niom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOMNiom niom niiomm niom NIOM
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FREEEAAKKKK


















I LOVE CHLOE. SHE IS AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL! And I have missed her oh so terribly....
Chloe needs to know how much she is loved..... Okayy.... So more than co co pops... more than Frappaccinnnoooss... More than Twilight.... More than Ben and Jerries... More than shopping sprees in Republic... More than cups of tea.... More than my lappyy topp.... and my duvet...

In fact... Times that by 100... and I still love chloe more xD

Obsessive you sayy?? Yuuupp =]

If I swung that way... I would ;)



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Right now... I am sat on my windowsil... In a pair of soft trackies and a hoodie... with my laptop and greenipod... chatting on msn... Its quite strange... And if anyone were to look up to my window while walking past... they would see me... lit up by my laptop screen.


I'm not happy... but I'm not sad either... I'm also real sleepy... and I think it would be amusing to fall asleep right here. Wake up tomorrow morning by the light through my window...


mmmm bright.














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Strange dreams...

So yesterday morning I woke up with a wild craving for a Frappaccino.... Or how ever you spell it... As I had been dreaming about them... as well as Water slides and tomato ketchup bottles hidding things?? Wtf... But yes... I was a little hyper when I first woke up... which did seem amuse Toby abit xD
But it was kinda his fault I was that hyper thoughh, as he woke me up by poking me in the back..... Grr to himmmm Haahaa.

So I got up... Hannah Ela and Robyn came over... and we walked about Bourton for a bit trying to find something to replace my cravings for coffee...
~Musli??
~Squirty cream
~Strawberries
~Hot chocolate
~Cold pizza

mmmm?!?! S'all good...

Then Jack appeared.... ran with Toby down to the bus stop to get bendy... then showed up again with him and Dan like an hour later...
We then decided to go to the campout place for a few hours... which was a little scaryy as we had to walk through a field of cows to get there... and alot of them had horns... ewwww!

Then later on... after everyone else had gone.... Hannah and myself went back to mine and slept until she had to go home =] Listening to Pink.... WOooP. Random muchly?




And Today is just dull.... I have nothing to do until tonight. When I will be working. And I dont even feel all that great... Yeeyyy.... Boredommm.



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Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won't fade away...

Well I had a really nice day off yesterday :D Spent the first bit of the day at Hannah's house with her Ela and Steve. It rained the whole time I had to wait for the bus... and all the way to her house... so I was completely soaked. But I did dry out after a bit =] Shame the washing didn't... Haahaa.
Then we caught another bus into town and went for a meal with James. Which was pretty awesome too :D Then he drove us back to mine and we sat and had a drink for a bit. And raved to real bad songs... xD
Then after they went I just went online and called Toby for a bit... then Bendy LOL We barely know each other and we are already on the phone to each other every night for at least half an hour... 3/4 of an hour the night before last Haahaa. So yeahh... Hopefully Toby Hannah and Ela will be staying over tonight after I finish work... and a load more peoples will be over tomorrow :D And maybe me and Hannah will make a cake??? :O :P
Woop =]

And as for the title...?? I was listening to it when I named my blog =]
Mind... lyrics don't usually mean nothing if I write themm... So guess :P


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I don't know you anymore.

Don't come looking for me
Cause I'll be right here with the words you say
I'm looking for the words to say
You know what you did, you know
How can anybody forget the promise that you made?
Well this is how a promise breaks
I always knew you'd fall through
And now you're proof

Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
I knew it would not last
Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
Make it quick, make it painless
Don't tell me lies just say goodbye

And now you're running from me
So cool, so scared of what you might've said
And no one's ever looked away
Cause we know what you did, we know
If I told anybody that we would soon forget your name
And you would never have a place
I always knew you'd fall through
And now you're proof

Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
I knew it would not last
Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
Make it quick, make it painless

Don't tell me lies just say goodbye
Don't say too much, oh
I think we've heard enough from you, oh

Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
I knew it would not last
Rewind to the first time
And I felt it coming
Make it quick, make it painless

Don't tell me lies just say goodbye
Don't tell me lies just say goodbye




I can tell.... This week is going to be boring. And by the sounds of it, so is next week.

I haven't done all that much today... Have decided to take a break from party's for a while. Worked for a few hours... Then went bare back riding with mother, which was pretty fun =]
I haven't riden in a long while... so it was a little silly to get straight on without a saddle... but hey ho. It was fun. And I dont think we were out for more than an hour anyway... well maybe just... hmmmm
Then after that we went to go see Wayne... mothers friend... who has REALLY cool pets. I mean... turtles?! I poked a pen at one and it malled it ^^
Sooo cute!!!
And somehow that got us onto the conversation of the film "Teeth" ... which sounds pretty damn disturbing... :S So I have borrowed that from him and am planning on watching it with Hannah Apps when shes over next. Talking about Hannah's... I miss Hannah Moran... Why does she have to live so far away?! She is sooo awesome!! But tbh I miss Toby more... Why does he have to go visit family??? xD Why can't he make them come visit him!! Haahaa




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Thats right.... just go crawling back....

Last night was cool =] I made a new friend, Bendyyy Hes loverlyy. He wrote his msn up my arm this morning so I didn't forget it xD

I helped clear up too... Woop, also theived a shot glass... which i was told i was allowed... to i didn't reeeeaaally steal it :)


The last few days I have been pretty sleep deprived Hahaa!! I didn't get to sleep til 5am night before last... then had work 3-finish... then straight to Tobys house partyy LOL
And didn't get more than about 2 hours sleep then??


Hannah Meringue is cool (H) (Shes a meringuuuueeee) :D





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So I slept in a tent last night... In my living room?? It might sound a little strange... But it was quite cool =]

mmmmm vodka mixes ;)




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Lovely... Truely Charming...

Cold... it's soo cold...

Ahh!! I got left on my own for the first time today at work. It was only for afternoon teas and it was fairly quiet. But still... it was just my luck that a table of 8 came in all wanting high teas (the most awkward thing on the menu) and all made it even more awkward by changing their minds several times on what drinks they wanted!! Grr!! And they were all french or something too so they weren't all that easy to understand... Luckily the chef helped me out on the sandwiches and stuff =]

I think I temporally killed my wrists at work too... Woop. But they feel better now =]

Errrr.... what else have I done todayy?? Well I got up real early... 8ishh?? And Hannah and Robyn came over for the dayy, which was real nice =] We ate pudding and chatted and were generally lazyy :D
Then Toby showed up... shortly followed by Simonee... Then I had to go to work... And now I'm online... Woop.

And tomorrow?? Trip to Cheltenham for the day... and work at night/ eveningg =]



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Flying High

I am in a real weird mood tonight... I just got back from walking over to the horses field with Simon. And now I'm just on msn.... I was sleepy... and I still am... but something tells me I won't sleep tonight... at least not very much.


Having more obsessions this week.....
Some old Jem songss... as well as 30H!3...
Don't trust me.

I love them...

Love Katie (Pony)... She was sooo cute todayy . She chased me round the field cause I had polos ^^

Mwahh.


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Nioom niooommm

I could carry on and on about the new drawer in my room that is growing fast due to my recent shopping sprees. But I won't. =]
Heehee


Am currently sat drinking tea... going to work in about 30 mins.... and I need to get dressed :/
Never miiind xD I have been early waaayy too much latelyy.


Last night I had a real random craving to write some Japanese ?? So I wrote a paragraph about cake xD
mmmmmm caaake



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Ow..

My tummy hurttsss =(

Am just about to go into town... my day off work todayy =]
I worked 3-11 yesterday after having to clean my house from the house party I had Haahaa.
Well mother wasn't in... thought Id make the most of it. Not that she would care anyway...


Oww...

And again.....


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Sexy tights... mmm

I look like a right doosh todayy =] Bright red top... green skirt... and patterned tights... cause that goes well!! Haahaa
Well I have been at work all day... My new shoes rubbed a biiit but not as much as the ones before them, they destroyed my feet completely. They are still scarred.

Debbie and Riny are back this weekend to stay, and mum is just cooking a huuge mass of food for them now... and they aren't even here yet!! There is even pavlova for afterrr, and a huuuge bottle of wine!! ...shame its red.... me no likes red wine to an extream... but that means that I will probs get given a bottle of white to myself... teeheee!! Must remember I have to work tomorrow though...

Weell me and Simon have been going out (this time) for a month now. Bless hiiimm!! He showed up at my door this morning with a box of chocolates (Maltesers) and a drawing. =]
Twas soooo sweeett ! ! !


Niommm

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Hmmm... the weather has been getting better =] And by that I mean it has been raining more =]
Loves rain...

I worked 12-5ishh todayy instead of the split shift I was ment to do. Which is all goooood. Then mum bribed me with cakes to go over to the horses field with her and help her move the fences about to give the horses more grass and clear up. And now am just on my lap top... wondering whether or not I should go be sociable or just listen to music whilst reading... mind that might confuse me a little? Thinks I will just have some me time.

And tomorrow I will go see Hannah again. As I was at her house yesterday too with a fair few others, and we made a really cool cake as well as watching 2 scary films and treking to tescoss to get ben and jerrys as well as the cake mix. (We are too lazy to make a cake from scratch so we got a tom and jerrys fairy cake pack)
In these cakes we also added green food colouring and crushed Oreos ? xD
They looked terrible!! But tasted real yummmmyy!!


And my moan for the day... People that go through your phone and read all your texts without asking, and open texts that you haven't read yet. That bugs me. Alot. I guess I will just have to learn to delete my messages more often. I mean... I never do that to anyone else... So why should anyone do it to you??!?!?!?? Grrr!!!


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Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away

And now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

And six feet under water
I
Do




Obsessed with that song.
Generally obsessed with Linkin Park atm. (Thanks to Chloe for lending me their Album)



Hmmm... What have I done today... Worked 11.30 til 4... had to chase after a woman after she didn't pay. (Lattes don't come for free you know!) Then called up some friends and went to see them for a bit... randomly dropped into a depressive mood then went home.


Too bad he made me bin it =(


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Oh and didn't get to go to that camp out last night due to work... 8 hours straight... obvs not illegal.

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I don't know why I want you so
'Cause I don't need the heart break
I don't know what addictive hold
You have on me I can't shake
No, I'm not in control
So let me go.



God it has been soooo hot today and yesterday. But I discovered that I do actually have a fan in my room! I hadn't really noticed before... but its the thing I use as a stand for the purple flowers I have up in my room. Duhh?!?!
Ohh and I have been wearing a dress for part of today and yesterdayy! Which is different, as I hardly ever wear dresses for general usage.... If that makes sence??

Mwahhh 2 & 1/2


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I swear that my mother is doing everything possible that she can to make my life feel like shit. And it really is working. I do feel like shit right now. Fucking charming...

~So very annoyed at the world~

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Smooth Vanilla Muller

Niom niommm.....

Today has been... strange... Working with Simon was different. Only a little though. I didn't talk to him much as I didn't really get the chance.. and I didn't wanna get made fun of by my boss. As shes like that xD
Also saw Hayley for a bit after work. We went for a trip down to spar with her ickle brother to buy Apple Juice and yoghurt.... mmmmm Mind those yoghurts are real difficult to carry!!

But now I am left with a night to myself?! Is this real?! Our friends from Holland/ Belgium have gone to Ireland for 2 weeks and then are coming back to stay with us for a few more nights, Simon is working and its a school night for all the other kiddies... So what is there to do? I really don't feel like cleaning my room... Or making anything else... So I am writing in here again?? Sad child... (And whats with the ..... ?? I CANT HELP IT!!)

Boooooreeeddd!!

oooooo! Todays best moments? ... I completely obliterated a glass at work!! It didn't just smash when I dropped it... it shattered and went everywhere! Completely destroyed it xD
And I caught another bird that got in the restaurant, go meeee!



mmmmm Kings Of Leon =P








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. <3 .

私の心に属する .

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Strawberry Body Paint..... mmmmmmm

It tastes like ice cream!! Strawberry ice cream... surprisingly... And the woman in the shop was right!! It iss sooooo adictive!! I could sit and eat the tube myself!!

So yes.... Myself, Hayley, Chloe, Hannah, Char and Robyn went into town today and did a fair bit of shopping =]
And went into a cafe with surreal toilets.... They were real freaky!! Felt like the rooms you get before you go on a real scary rollercoaster.... But not as exciting... ?!

Hmmm... and tomorrow will be my 8th day straight working. Then I get 2 whole days off!! Thank god!! Wonder how many hours I have worked this week....

mmmmm co co pops and ice cream........ mmmmmmm



~So very scared~

Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined

And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

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Carpet burnssss =(

This time we're not giving up
Let's make it last forever
Screaming "hallelujah"
We'll make it last forever !!


Back to good old paramore. There is nothing like it.
I love it.

Umm yeahh... soo what have I been doing with myself lately? Working.. working.... and working a bit more... Its quite dull. But there are a few exciting moments that make me want to last til the end of the week :D Like seeing peoples I love. Oh and our friends from Holland are coming over at the end of this week!! Woop. And as I have been working soooo much this week and all next week I have been given friday and saturday off work :D Yeeyyy!!



And if you're listening, I miss you.
And if you hear me now, I need you.







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Last night.... ;)

Yeah well I had my neighbour round this afternoon when I got home... complaining that we were real noisey til 3am... and she had to get up at 7.... Paahhh! Mum would have told us if we were being real loud! She needs to take some sleeping pills or something and learn to be a less light sleeperrrrr!
Got to admit though.... last night was pretty Damn awesome!! I finally got to meet the hottiee which is Lauren! Dan's amazing girlyy. And Sammy and myself joined in with all the guys out in the rain topless!! Always wanted to do that.... Woop woop. Got completely drenched!! Then came in and played spin the bottle with everyone... meaning now I have kissed most of my friends.... bit weird in some cases... well VERY in some... Haahaa.
Didn't really get all that much sleep... Oh and I stayed soberishh!! Which is also real weird for mee!!

But yess.... Todays been nice too! Cept for the hair cut... which looks terribleee!! Haahaa I want to shoot the woman that did it to me.... Eurghhh.
Mother and myself went out for some food after going to the hair dressers... got a meal for free ;) Then went to go see Helen... Yeahh.... Shes clever she is.

But I really must get some sleep as I got work tomorrowwww.

Then prom the next day!!! (Y)



x x x

~Who likes short shorts?~

~I like short shorts~

"Don't walk out!! I will buy you cakeee!!"
ROAR....y Haahaaaa.


Ohh I feel mega cool... drinking with my mum... Woooop.
Hmmmmm.... Which is better? Carrot tops? Or cheese puffs?
I had this argument with Simon the other day... I think a cheese puff would win anyday as it would have an army of fat people behind it! Where as what does a carrot top have? Rabbits?? My fat people would sit on his rabbits and CRUSH them ^^ Mwaahhh.
God we have matture arguments.

But yes... am ever so slightly annoyed that I have to work tomorrow daytime... as I did have other plans... but it isn't the end of the world... I get all of tuesday off. And all of thursday off for the prom. So thats good! Hayley and myself are off to get our hair put up on the thursday morning, wooop. Well.... afternoon...

I hate you! Lets be friends? ^^




mmmmmmmmm spiceyyy :P


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It's having an orgasm in your mouth...

By my title I mean lindt lindor chocolate. What else?! Haahaa I feel in a reaaallly FAT mood today. In fact I feel horrible! I look terrible! I need more sleep lol.... I just feel grumpy again...
Lets just say I pitty anyone that wakes me up tonight. xD

Well I have just got a call from Hannah and James asking to meet up... so me thinks I will go see those 2 for an hour or so... then go get some sleep =]


mmmmmmmmm warm duvet.............


xx



I <3 My Carrot top ;)

No more exams (Y)

Yeeeeyyyyyyy!!! Freedomm!!! Well... maybe not... I still got to work... alot...
But that is better than exams any day =]

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I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone.

Evanescence lyrics =]

Today has been quite cool. I got to see Hannah and Ela... try on part of my prom dress (Which is gorgeous... even though only the lining has been made) and go shopping! Woo. Got some shoes... which are also real pretty... but don't have much of a heel on them... Grrr.

I even did 20 mins of revision! Amazing for me! I now understand more about plant cells ;)

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Dead.

I think i have just cried my soul out onto my bed and into the sofa.
Yepp you can tell I've had a nice day.

Paramoreee <33333

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening.
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
(It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours
(My heart is yours)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart is...

Broken
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Blub blubb

Hmmmm...... angry angry angryyyy.

Ahhh there was a biiirdd in the restaurant this afternoon! ^^ A little black bird! It was soooo cute!! But I had to put a tea towel over it and carry it outside cause Andrea doesn't like them... Don't get how?!?! They are soooo cuuute!! Do make a bit of a mess though.... and fly into windows when they are scared..... Bless 'em.

I love you..... Chloe, Hannah, Hayley & Sammmmm. xx

xxx

This is the English way to make a soul fit back together

Okay I am fed up of exams, and that feeling you get when you know you have done shit. When you know that you could have done better... but you just didn't. I want more sleep. I want to hibernate for a week or two.

I don't know why it happened earlier.... I wasn't tired.... I just kinda momentarily died inside. God knows what goes on in my head.... cause I don't.



Todays obsession >> As my title may suggest Fightstar, the english way. I love it.





Ahhhh am on such a low....

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Ahem....

Well what can I say? Last night was..... weird..... Not that I can remember much of it. Lying on the floor listening to songs on my greenipod with a randomer that Robyn works with chatting about how he remembered me from school even though I was like 2 years under him? James even showed up at this party! Don't think I was sober enough to hold down a conversation... but hey ho. I didn't throw up WOOP ^^
However I did wake up in the morning wondering where I was and how I got there.... Which is weird even for me as I never usually have complete memory failures. HAA.

Me thinks sleep for the rest of the day.... sober up xD (I still feel drunk) Mwahh
Don't have to work today Wooooop =]

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Baby I miss you!!

Ahh I got sent home early from work today cause I looked that rough! HA! Direct quote from jill >> "Sara you can get off now, go die at home." So i did =] Came home... took a load of pain killers and huddled into a ball on my bed. But the good news is, the pain killers have started working now and I have tissues for my cold =] So its not too bad....
I must admit, that was nice of my boss. Its unusual for her to be that nice... well she probs just didnt wanna get ill too.

I'm not working now until tomorrow night.... what do I do with all this spare time?!?!
I feel like singing...

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ZzzZzzZzzZzzz

Okay I think I am going to kill Toby next time I see him as he borrowed my twilight dvd and scratched it.... So now it doesn't play properly anymore. I love that film as well!! And I still have bite marks all over my neck and arms from him and Simone! *Evils*

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


Blurghh..... Sleepyyyyy


I saw Hannah and Claudia from Denmark today! Woop woop. We went out to a pub for lunch and drinks and such like. It is really strange how Claudia can swop languages like she does. I'd love to get that good at another language like that!! I might get to see them again before they go back home, but I doubt it. Hmmmm... there is still msn. =]

I have my Japanese exams out the way now! Woop. Just the rest of them to go.... Joys...
Have hardly done any revision for the ones I have done so far... I don't have the attension span for it... Grrr!


Ahhh wellllll....


xxx

My heart is skipping higher and higher.

Am soo nervous... I just wanna scream and run in circles... Silly exams... Silly throat... Silly head...
Am real worried about getting ill again... I don't feel too bad... but my tonsils have got spots on them again... And they hurt too.... :S Ahh!!

And yet again I am obsessed with another song by Jimmy Eat World or who ever they are...




God I wish I was clever.

















AHHHHH ^^


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I am gunna fail maths... and english.... and japanese.... and any other exam i have!

Right! I am going to have a good old moan now. Firstly, my throat hurts. Second... I am going to fail everything!! Every exam I take I am gunna fail. I have done hardly any revision... I am in a bad mooooood! And I will be very pissed if i get ill for these exams... even if i dont fail I will still try!

I get the whole of saturday day off though... so that is good. Can go shopping... or revise... (Eurgh) And have booked the wednesday in half term off with hayley as well. =]
So that should be a laugh...


Am also obsessed over a new song by The Veronicas. Untouched. Its prettttyyyy.

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One day left.

So tomorrow we are all to wear "smart" cloths?! Like I have any of those... I did get some nice shoes... but they are just difficult as they are a little too big and i walk out of them a bit... so i would get rather annoyed... and most likely just throw them down a flight of stairs... But hey! I got some new skinnies and a new skirt... I might wear one of those tomorrow, that is if i can sort out some shoes to go with them. Grrr!

So study leave starts in one day! Wow! Time has moved real fast over the past year... I feel like i have wasted it to be honest. I should have made the most of the little things that really count, like seeing everyone at lunch time. I should have made more of an effort with everyone and everything! And maybe less of an effort with other things that should have been prohibited.

Hmmm I need to water the plant on my windowsill.... I think it still lives though =]

Japanese exam tomorrow....... :S




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Sick to the core ILoveIt Don't you?

Those are the reasons I don't let them into my heart anymore. Enough is enough.


Well I can't sleep so I thought I might as well write in here. As I haven't been on it in a while.
I have been getting real close to a few of my girlies like Chloe and Sam =] Which is really nice! And I really do love those two, I find myself happier in general... I have more energy than I used to. And I am looking forward instead of just focusing on the present.






Somewhere weakness is our strength, And i'll die searching for it, I can't let myself regret, such selfishness,My pain I know the trouble caused, no matter how long,I believe that there's hope.







There always is.










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BloodBloodBloodBlood.....

It's okay! I made it to the sink this time haahaa. I didn't leave a mess anywhere! Woop.

Drip Drip Drip....


At least it chased away the headache....



Silly nosebleeds....
But yes anyways... today was alright. Last night i arranged my friday night. Which shall be awesomeness'. Maybe go into town with some friends... eat lots... chat even more! =]

I have been happy today... bit zoned out at times... but happy =] Then just... I dunno.... after school.... hmmmm.... I wonder what the hell my body is doing now... *Roles eyes*


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I Hate Bank Holidays

There are just soo many stupid tourists that crowd the village and just stand in the way.... in the road most of the time. And they all walk so very slooooowlyyyyyyyyy!

Hmmmm I'm bored. I want to see more of my mates... But they are always out in town or what ever what ever... And they don't really get that having a job gives me less time... so it feels like they don't really like me as much any more as I don't spend so much time with them. :(
I might just be being paranoid... or stressed again.... HA!! Stupid nosebleeds....

And when we go off on study leave.... will I ever see them after that?? Will I loose the whole group of mates that I have only just made?? :(

Hate thinking......


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Rewind!

Two done and one to go!! (I have done my french and german oral and have just my Japanese to go now..) Wooop.. But i think i should talk about something else right now as the thought of an exam in japanese stresses me out!!! Arrghhh!!!!!

Hmmmm I am in such a fffffffucking weird mood..... I just had a nose bleed for no reason..... And im getting urges to roam around my village in pjs..... And I don't really feel like sleeping either.... which is weird.. as i was up awake early this morning due to messed up dreams that i didn't like. GRR

I really want some new underwear.... I am getting bored of the bra's i have now! I want some real colourful ones...!!



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Kick!!

Great. I have a Japanese exam on muck up day. Starts at lunch... and is about 2 hours. Brilliant.... But you have to wear smart cloths on that day...?? Like i could ever look smart XD





Just one other thing... as I do not want to talk today..... A decision?? PAH!! Yeah right...

Most people are just in it for all they can get ....Player.

Co co pops........................ I want..........................

Yeah I get obsessed easily. Shhh!!
Well I have now had co co pops with
-milk
-soya milk
-chocolate milkshake
-banana milkshake
-squirty cream
-ice cream
-water (EWW)

What else is there to try?? I dont think it would work on toast..... :S
Hmmmmm.....

And I am also a little obsessed with drawing the co co pop monkey from the advert. AHA!

I am open to trying any thing with co co pops..... any suggestions??

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There is nothing left... no inbetween

I am running out of space to hide it. My little obsession... it is growing.

I want to stop. But I don't care enough for myself to...




I want co co pops!! And there are even some downstairs!! ARGGHHH!! Yeah well at the moment I have two moods.... Hyper! Or dead. It is one or the other. And they change so quickly sometimes... its weird!!

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P.s. I'm sorry :(

This is my December

Obsessed muchly?! LOVE that song....



First day back to school today, and it was alright! I had alot of energy considering how early i woke up. I was happy to see all my friends again.


Hmmm... there is something that is bothering me at the moment. It has been there a while now, but something has brought it back to my attention lately and made me worry... I refuse to tell anyone what, as I just don't trust anyone... And well... the few that I do trust.... I could never tell anyway. I have stopped mentioning it to my mum, and I hope in time it goes away.

Something else sort of bothered me today too... someone that just lets himself into my house and into my heart without permission for either... I'm not angry at him for it... Just a little annoyed with myself... again.


I want to forget these things, but my body and mind won't let me :(

PaZAH

Well I am nearly up together with my ict. My storyboard is nearly complete... just a couple more slides... But I still have to finish my E portfolio. That shouldn't take too long though hopefully. I cannot believe it, I accidentally restarted my computer for the second time in 2 days today. Grr! And my work didn't save either, so I had to start over what I had been doing.

I have seen a fair few friends today at short notice... It was really nice! We went for a walk in the rain, in matching wellies and coats, and chatted about lots of stuff. Then went back to mine for cups of tea.

I then went for a 3 course meal with another mate. Which was awesome! But we ended up having laughing fits half way through the meal for no apparent reason... I can easily imagine us being the loudest table in there...

Niom... I feel rather full....

Ahh I do love that girl.

One of my friends and me have a plan. A plan to get drunk off of rum ice cream. We are planning to buy much of this kind of ice cream then melt it and drink it like coffee. And if the rum ice cream needs ID to be bought we plan to stand on each others shoulders, borrow a coat and a hat from others and look intimidatiing! It shall work!
Then after that we are going to be such yobs! We shall talk loudly and loiter around street corners with cans of beer!! Obvs we will not need to drink them as we shall already be smashed.... But they will look good~!~

Ahhh yessss.......

Monday?

It really doesn't seem like monday. Maybe due to the fact that it is a bank holiday, and there are soo many people about, meaning that work was fairly busy... not too bad... but still. And due to one of the new guys at my work deciding that they can't work tonight I got asked to do a split shift instead of all day. Which in the end has turned out to be a good thing as I have got some work done for my Japanese too! I still have loads left.... but as Tecso say "Every little helps"

I really cannot wait to go shopping with mother this week. I need to go on a spending spree!! Get some more black cloths for work and some more tops... maybe even a skirt?!

Don't Upset The Rhythm Go Baby Go. << I am Obsessed with this song!! By Noisettes. It is the sex.

I think my mum is worried about me again... Its like she is watching me, keeping track of me. It's sweet... but really? No need dear!

Wait... Just wait.... Wait some more...... Get Bored...... LEAVE!

I think I've already said too much. Crap

My hands feel empty With nothing to hold

(Lyrics to what ever it is I am listening to are my title today- kinda weird lyrics if you think about it, maybe even wrong... eww!)

My mother can be so sweet at times. Bless her... I came down stairs earlier to get a strawberry (Felt like one...??) And was stood munching on that when I spotted a load of chocolate on the table... A kinder egg, three cream eggs and some Minstrels. And she felt guilty for not getting me an actual egg as they had sold out!!

Ahh I changed the sheets on my bed earlier. All of them. The pillow cases, the duvet case and the sheet. I took me roughly half an hour... as I kept getting distracted my msn... but I did it!

And right now? I am currently battling to stay awake just so I can listen to some music... which you obviously can't do when you are asleep... But it would be cool if you could. Very cool.... two of my favourite things to do combined. All I would need to complete my heaven then would be the ability to eat at the same time as both of the above.

Lindt Lindor... Orgasmic...

Rain. Rain. Rain.

There is too much I want to say today.... So instead of saying it all and letting you understand, I am going to say nothing at all.

Too many muffins.

Watashi wa ke-ki ga suki desu. (<< Too much)

It was good to see those two again. And a few others too for that matter. We went on a 3 hour long walk around everywhere we could find... Listening to music and shouting out the lyrics as loud as we could. Not really singing... None of us can sing very well in all honesty.

Last night was pretty uncomfortable. I slept across two single beds which had been pulled together to make a double. Only thing was, the bed didn't quite touch, leaving a gap between them. This was a little... annoing, I woke up roughly every half hour.


I am really happy for one of my friends at the moment. He has finally found someone, and he seems really happy! I hope that it lasts. (This might even count for two of my friends)





Ai shimashita...
Wakarimasen....
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Okay lets not be too hasty this time.

I deleted my old blog.... because.... well quite frankly I got bored of it. But I felt like talking/ typing today so I made another one.

My phone is fucking me off. Well it's okay now, but my texts weren't sending a minute ago. And I got a little worried that my network had gone down again, due to the fact I am on T mobile and it stopped working in my village for over a week. Which actually drove me nuts.

I really am in the mood to chat about meaningless things for hours.... But I'm not going to. I am going to go and see some friends instead.

Goodbye